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Day 2 - the meaning behind your name [link]
Saturday, September 24, 2011
A more direct way of doing this: My mom named me after Mother Teresa, hoping that I would harbor characteristics that she has (and also because my sister is Tricia, and her name is Tracy, so it's only right that I have a name that starts with T) but I don't really remember why my chinese name is Ming Hui. I'm just really glad I don't only have a chinese name. (1. because that's just sad! 2. i don't really like it) A less direct way of doing this:  8) (oh and it's not in any particular order) **  And credits to Rach for writing me that note while Ms Yap was talking about birds, birds and birds during our tutorial. I've been pretty depressed and unmotivated the last two weeks because I felt that there was not enough time for me to do all that I want to and that I would retain anyway so what is the point of doing anything! Of course that was highly pessimistic and I am not exactly being practical nor level-headed. A few events happened here and there and I was like a balloon continuously pumped with air (and air being a metonym for those unnecessary, painful events and emotions). I try to forget how heavily filled I was with all these thoughts and feelings but while it worked temporarily, it still came back. In any case I did some soul-searching yesterday and I did what I thought was right which could steer me towards a better direction. I've taken some steps earlier, just after June, and though they were minimal compared to the distance more ahead on top with the one I took yesterday, coupled altogether it's better than nothing. This is part of my self-acceptance, but it's a whole load of junk and nobody really likes to bore themselves reading about the sad life of another ☺ Coming Monday is the start of my end of year exams, which is, more commonly known for J1 kids as our promotional exams. I still don't know if I can do it, I still don't know if I will retain, but I feel much more organized and I have higher determination now (especially after having a 9pm-9am sleep last night which made up for the loss sleep I got from the poor sleeping pattern that I adopted again). Really, tere, you know what to do. You understand. You have all the relevant and necessary materials (fully now, after the final two productive literature lessons where everything was packaged up nicely, literally and metaphorically) and it is all now just up to your bloody head. "It isn't what you have, or who you are or where you are or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It's what you think about." - Dale CarnegieGood luck to all other fellow #jckids (*nudges bill, karthik, giselle, jon, rahul, sheryl, whole of A05) who're about to take their promos and to the people who're done: i hope you will promote. Congrats to my poly mates (*nudges sher vi bern fart vai sam etc) who've completed their first semester and who has good gpa results! and also g'luck to belz, nic, chian and joev hehe. I'm off to finish 3/4 of econs and both of my history. A little too idealistic in my opinion, but I hope i'll be somewhere there anyway. promos > chinese intensive > chinese a levels > pw final wr/i&r/op/full a lvl assessment > 2 weeks of normal lessons > vi's bday > lit melbourne trip > nic's bday > 2 - 3 chalets > hopefully bangkok > year ends > my birthday > whole load of clubs mambo nights and driving lessons > a level > on towards uni. It'll all end soon won't it? Just like the Harry Potter series. Can't wait to get out. Sigh life flies by too fucking fast but - everything happens for a reason, and there will always be a blessing in disguise. My system of living. Hope i'll be back with day 3, alive, soon hehe, toodles! |