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Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Yehz.

You don't know how much things I wish to advice you, to help you, to encourage you, to share with you, but I'm always pushed back by this wall, by this invisible (or maybe not), complicated, complex, painful, wall. I am still telling myself not to be selfish and not let history repeat itself. Thinking the best out of everything, I can, I will.

I don't know what else to comment on the other matter when all that comes out is foreign words, warped emotions, and negative thinking.

School is getting less and less interesting, and becoming more and more of a drag, a lousy, stupid repetitive schedule that holds no meaning in any sort, no beneficial gain. Reach just-in-time, silence, silence, teacher talking, silence, silence, and school's over.

Call Education a gain, when I'm flunking maths, and also not getting on par with the other subs? Getting distracted constantly, not being able to focus on just one stupid English comprehension book, or an essay, I should prepare myself to get a bad mark for English, seeing how much I've deproved.



Exams is officially, or er almost starting in practically two more days.

All I can do, is to stay behind the screens, and get hooked onto maybe millions of pixels all put together for one stupid panda-pig-like-thing-wearing-a-watermelon-and-a-paper-bag, and also some cooking food decors in a visually created restaurant.

~.~
Maybe 10 years from now I'll look back and think, wtf what kind of life am I leading right now?! and then sigh, maybe try to bang my head on the wall a few more times, skip some meals and then chuckle.



D:

Aside from finally achieving two things I want in Pet Society (thxusomuchZiguiandShereen), I've now got to concentrate between three things:
- Chinese Oral tomorrow (if I'm not wrong)
- A Maths retest
- STUDY FOR ENGLISH!!!!

wtfwtfwtfwtf I'm already totally stumped for the stupid argumentative essay, how can I do my paper 1!!! D: AND MR YEN KEEPS DELAYING OUR ENGLISH PAPERSSSSSSSSS ARGHHHH I wanna know my mark I wanna know my mark! I'm feeling nervous, I'm afraid I'd do badly. If the E1s had such bad marks, what would I get T.T.

It's time for my social ladder to drop once more, (and my waistline to feel tight again this Friday probably), coz I've gotta study reaaaaaaaaaal hard now. If I wanna get at least almost all As, I've gotta earn it.

THANK YOU JESS SO MUCH FOR OFFERING TO HELP ME WITH MY A MATHS.
Thursday & Friday is fully booked on A Maths, before I enter a full throttle of Chinese words ~_~, thank you thank you Jess so so much!

Phew.
Exams has never felt this pressuring before.
I'm kinda glad now that History has only two chapters to study, Core Geography has dropped a few elements (near 1 chapter) for us to study and SS having only 2 - 3 chapters to study.

With Physics moving so fast, E Maths rushing like a bull, and A Maths, struggling to do well for all topics, it's difficult, especially when I have 2 weeks left to study.

WELL.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE FOR YOUR MID-YEAR EXAMS. DO WELL, GET YOUR As, AND MAKE YOUR MAMA PAPA PROUD!
Don't overstress yourself, don't keeeel too much brain cells and sprout too much white hairs, and don't go crazy, mumbling and talking to yourself :)

Wise words from a panda.


toodles!



Sunday, April 26, 2009
HELLO.
Boy do I have pictures :D
My social life had just climbed up several steps up, hahaha, but I'm sure it'll fall again when exam begins.

On Thursday, I hung out with 3 great girls (what a change!) and watched 17 Again together.



Honestly, I didn't think it would turn out as like a suppppper good movie, maybe just on the average, but I ended up nearly crying, and falling in love with how the story had went!

Seems like Zac isn't just some pretty boy with a nudepretty-lady girlfriend. I just couldn't imagine only how some giggly girls in the theatre could go all googoogaga for Zac, THAT ONLY HAPPENS FOR EDWARD CULLEN!!! NOT ZAC!!! O.O.

Whatever hehe.
Toilets R kewler.





Best place next, would be a great playground, and we know just where to go.

What we could hear was only giggles, hearty laughs, squeals and loads of running around and clicking of the camera/phone, whatsoever :)































Time passed fast, we all left back for home.

Thanks Chin Yen for the taxi ride back! ^^
And thanks the cy2 + s for the fun night.





The next day, Jie picked me up from school, after an enlightening session with Andre and Zacgeist, and even in the car I felt the heat of the humid weather, we were sweltering inside simply on the seat of the car itself even with aircon!

Papa wanted to bring us to this Brazilian restaurant to try.
It's in United Square, in Newton area (if I'm not wrong, or Novena), and located on the 4th floor (if I'm not wrong either :X).

The place is called Fiesta Brasilia. Search it up for a more direct address.



Saucy menu :P

Surprisingly, when I opened it, it turns out to be a menu for drinks, wines, and beers. There was nothing about food!
Jie and Papa were deciding on what wine to try, and ended with a 07 dinner wine. (which was also their wine of the month)





Blood red, perhaps maybe the same blood Bella has which Edward lusts for XD

They had salad served as buffet, where you go and help yourself, to take them. There were fried rice, rice, chicken, and stuffs, and I was wondering, if there are some basic dinner food here, what about the rest? o.O. I got my helping of the starters.





And what came next was a surprise!

A chef approached our table, with a stick of meat, and he asked, "Do you want some?". I just nodded, and he sliced the ham for me on to my plate, and for each of us, and left.

Another chef followed suit, and did the same thing, but with a different meat!

Turns out, that's how Brazillians get their food served, chefs walking around slicing the meat for you! How awesome and special is that!







It's ham, chicken and beef/lamb on top.

There were so much meat that kept coming, till I could not recognize whichever meat I was eating! I just ate, and ate, and ate.

There's a mixture of pork, lamb, beef, chicken. Mostly it was beef, though.
Here are a series of pictures of different meat I had eaten.

Prepare to drooooooooool.





















Gosh, please stop salivating :D

Some of them are really really divine, scrumptius, delicious, whatever vocabulary of the world "YUMMY" you can find! I filled my tummy right over the brim, I think I was like two months pregnant!

Some meat just left you feeling that same emotion Ratatouille tried to potray - when you bite into it, you could feel the juice coming out, filling your mouth with that mouth-watering taste, and your teeth just chewing on that small chunk of meet, before devouring it down.



Jie ordered pasta, she did mention "give me a small portion",
and really, they did.



Hahhaha.
There was also a fried pineapple o.o, it was long, and looked a little burnt. At first I didn't dare to try it, because I don't like to eat pineapple alone, it always tastes too sweet, but I did in the end,



It tastes good! I mean, it's not crispy, as it looks, but the sweetness was just alright.

What sent me even more hyper WAS THAT THEY SERVED ICE CREAMS TOO!
Two tubs only, mixed berry & chocolate BUT YAY THE FLAVOURS ARE GOOD! I LIKE 'EM, AND OMG THE TOPPINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY FAVVVVVVVVVV





WEETUWEET!!





At the same time while I was enjoying my ice cream, the cookers all came together and had a performance!
The barmaid was the dancer.



It was quite entertaining! They tried to get people to come dance with them, but nobody dared, including Jie and me :x At least we managed to walk to the stage, before walking back to our seats LOL.

Papa complimented them, and the friendly chef replied us and said, "Well, we're more than just meat."
Just like what it said on the menu.

:) I enjoyed myself there, if you're a meat eater, go there and try it!



The following Saturday was our Career Seminar.
I had a tough time choosing, initially, out of 11 courses, and I ended up with Veterinary & Apparel Design. It was far more interesting and a better one than the other common/weird courses.

It would be cool too if I had gone for Culinary, though D:

I've a lot of choices to choose from now.





Which now again raises my confusion and indecisive mindset - JC or Poly?
Heck care about the "JC = More academic approach, Poly = More hands-on approach" thing, it's about what I want to excel in, or to begin with, what I want to know before a working life. Then again, what?

Hmm.
After the thing, Chinyen, Shereen, Bank, Bernard, Zigui and me went to Mac to have our lunch, before we went to play pool :D
Billy and Fathih joined us ^^





We met Alessio there! Gosh is he tall now, and Vivian was a fast learner~

Decided on many things to do, and ended up going to Billy's house to play cards! HAHA, I really liked Billy's room mate Sunny, so cute and friendly. I wish korean boys in our school could be more like him :P

It was quickly 8, and we all left for home.

Phew.
It had been a string of events. You know up till now I think I still owe you guys 4 posts lol, and the scary thing is, June Hols' is coming, and the first few weeks is already packed with events!

Papa is planning a trip to Macau, but I've yet to decide :/
English exam is in 4 more days OMG thinking about it makes my body tingle, time really really go by too fast. Sigh, please don't let me get distracted for the next three days.

I'mma study some other subs after this post, and the next three days fully on English.
I'm nervous, what if I don't do well for English, and get A2 or even lesser than that? :(

Next week, and another 1 more month, and it's already a break, and our relationship isn't getting no where.
I've only questions in my head now, and some shouldn't-be-there ecstacy/desire/newfound eyecandy.

blablabla.
It won't be long before another dramarama will come up again.

Handling well with my life, good enough to not start crying and go all craze, hurting myself and jumping off cliffs (lolz ms. swan), I hope.

Love y'all everyday.
toodles.



Wednesday, April 22, 2009
HELLO!
There's no homework today, so I'm finding excuses while I'm feeling lazy to study to use the computer :D
So much for the 'revision plans' ha.

My restaurant city could've already been like halfway or 3/4 through it's experience and can level by the next time I play, BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO it had to have it's dumb maintenence. lol, oh well hope it improves :D

PET SOCIETY HAS PANDA.
YAY SO HAPPY.
why? cos of earth day! woot! love u earthday.

people will appreciate pandas more now 8D



I love pet society! I take back what I had once said about it :X
Love my pet!

and I would also like to seize this opportunity to say something which I have (it's after 12 now) been late for at least 6 whole days.
I shall first apologize.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA LAM!



lolz sorry weiyan,
original pic:



I mean, the reason why I had to resort to that firstly was because camwhoring was not popularized in the early 20th century, which is 2001 - 2006! When I was still back there, who even bothered taking photos? God we had phones and we never used the bloody camera on ourselves WHAT IS WRONG WITH US.

And therefore it leads to the result of me not even having a single proper picture with Pris. How pathetic. I have to resort to photoshopping and cropping my face out to paste onto it, replacing Weiyans'! O.O.

At least it looks real eh? :D


15. years. old. ms pussy.
and I would like you to continue staying the way u r, and u have always been. hard to get, crazy, retarded, weird, but always a great friend i aint ever gonna forget. lazeebean, AnGeLDrEaMz, whitemanFU bluemanFU, blubber, fatee, cakee, koloe, hercules, soccer ball, and all the memories we have made together.
STAY HAPPY IN THAT LESBO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!

I can't wait for your 16th birthday already, LOL same applies to me.


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TODAY, after school, me and Shereen finally alone going to check out some girl stuffs. At first my image was like, woah loads of old clothings there where we can like try out, and take some photos and look cool and american-like but it just seem to turn out into an old-auntie disposable-clothes shop thing :/ hmm.

Good experience though, my first time at a flea market or spree.
Anyone interested, you can head to Salvation Army just around Hillview area. You can take buses like 176 963 there :D It closes at 6.

GUESS WHAT I SAW THERE OMG.



Do you know what is that?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS THAT?



IT'S LIKE ALMOST SIMILAR TO THE COAT EDWARD WORE OMG!!
OH EM GEE OH EM GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

1951tefjisopjfef012jt203jfmasdfas,fsa.
HA. I got to touch it. NANNY NANNY BOO BOO (imitates chris)

Had a good long erm, reminiscing, funny, lolzwtfomgbbq talk and I took a bus back TO BUY MY POTATO WEDGES HAHA.



Still tastes good! ^^

And also I'd like to add things I've found out today:
- I would either get 20 or 19 for my Physics already.
CARELESS. CARELESS. CARELESS.

- I would also definitely not get 18 and above for History, I think :(
another careless thing.

It reminds me of my E Maths test where I also had a bloody careless mistake. Could've gotten 17 instead of 15!!!! *kicks ownself, kicks ownself*

Sigh. If not for the stupid A Maths this Friday, life would've already seem a step easier, but it's friggin blocking the way!!!!
Consultation on Chapter 4 tomorrow. MUST. NOT. PROCRASTINATE OR GET DISTRACTED.

I can do it.

With this, I end with some mind boggling pictures (or photo illusions) that is solely credited to Facebook :D

PHOTO EEEELOOOZIONS




What do you see in the picture?
Two things, or one thing?





How many wolves are there?





What do you see?
Two things, or one thing?





How many faces are there?
Can it be counted?





What animal is that?
Is there any other?





Who can you see in the picture?
How many can you see?





Other than the old man, can you spot another two more people?









What kind of words can you spot?





Can you guess what is this picture?





Can you see what is in this picture?

Let me help you a bit:
- Hillside
- Dalmation
- Just dots


Here are some that I had picked out from a quiz.
If you had done it, good for ya :X

Look through them and try to discover things :D






When you're done, slowly scroll down for the answer........
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Can you see a face, and the word Liar?



There's actually 5 :)



Do you see a jazz horn blower and a woman?



Yes it can, and there's actually 12.



A rabbit and a duck!



It's the face of a man, an elderly man and a woman!



If you can spot closely, there are actually two lovers kissing.







Good Evil
Bad Eyes (if you look from a far, it'll be clearer)
Alive Dead

Did you get correct? ;)



It's actually a cow!



It's a dalmation!





lol! Did you get some correct?

It's 1:22 now, and I want to complete the class skin asap~!
Can't wait for this Sunday :D

Sadly, it's school again tomorrow, hooooboy.
Love y'all everyday.
toodles.



Sunday, April 19, 2009
HELLO.
thank you lovelies for your words of encouragements :)

Updates!
With a pair of great gays first, GG lah.



A panda lollipop I saw, while browsing sweets with Jeremy.



AND THERE IS REALLY A POKEMON CALLED CHINGLING!
HAHAHAHAHA, Emily told Qingling a long time ago actually, and I finally got to witness the pokemon itself!





The description, size and everything about it actually really fits Qing Ling well, if you get what I mean! XD
HAHAHAHA QINGLING, I CHOOSE YOU!

And of course the steamboat photos :)
I had a great time on Friday with great people after school.



Le Le Guo!
I really suggest you try eating steamboat at this place. It's in terms of buffet, and there's air conditioning!
The food is yummy, and the people is friendly and fun, you'd really have your tummy filled.

Two outlets in Singapore, one in Tiong Bahru and one in Geylang. I was in the TB one :D

I was late for half and hour opps :X sorry Kor, Jon and Wan Ting hahaha. We were walking and suddenly I saw Philip! SUCH A GREAT SURPRISEEEEEE, I missed Philip so much! :D

Settled down at the place, and ordered.



Our appetisers!



We had 4 soups :)
Here's 2 of 'em.



A group photo before eating!



And then the food starts coming in.

At first I thought that it was a whole lot of chunk, but not only did we finish them, we, in fact, ordered even more!

My favourite throughout the meal:



Beef!

And the yuckiest,



Scallop or clam meat or something. blech.

Erwin joined us shortly with the food bananza! whoo :D





Wanting!

That also meant, with his presence, to whip out the beer haahha.

Philip and me!



Another disgusting stuff posed with a disgusting face.





It's liver! lol.



An even more disgusting shot of that face. hahaha.

Their toilet bowl is cool.
The button to flush;



HAHAHAAH.
I ran back to our table to get my camera, to run back and take a picture xD

We ate all the way till 11, filling our tummies to the very brim, laughing over so much stuffs.
Their fried chicken is SUPER good also I tell you!

I left the place feeling older -_-
and we took a taxi to the MRT station.

I had a great great time. It was the best way to forget things :)
A pic to mark the end,



^^

Kor came over to help fix the TV and stuffs (finally), and I played com till 4, feels good to touch the com again.

Physic and Social Studies Remedial on Saturday from 9 to 12.30 ~.~ b-ummer, though it meant f-u-n after school though :D Thank you Ms Chia for the consultation! :)

Passed rather quickly, finally got to show Bernard my DS! hehe. We took away our MacDonald and went to our fav hang out.

We were sitting under the shelter, with Bank rebelling :P



After hanging around there a while more, Bank went back, and we went to play soccer :D
This girl joined us o.o and so it was girl vs boys, it was very fun! hahaha didn't realize soccer was that fun. We played a few balls and went to take a rest. I was panting heavily man, so fat lol.

Billy joined us soon after :D

A few small boys then came along with a small soccer ball, and the one that we had found was definitely bigger, so we asked them to come play with us! Another match of soccer, mannnnnnnnn we could keep going on, LOL it's so funny and fun.

Stopped, and took pictures ^^























Fathih having an admirer o.o.

We played with a cat next :D







It was early evening alr, and GUESS WHAT, WE SAW SANKI!!!! AND HIS BROTHER SANKAL!!! Shereen has already gone home than, but we didn't miss the opportunity! took pictures with 'em! hahaha!







Family.

ahahaha.
We also saw something cool.



:P went to Mac to have dinner, and I had the most yummywummygreatestdeliciousdevine thing ever!!!





IT WAS THE NEW MACDONALD'S SPICY SNACK WRAP!!

I TELL YOU, YOU MUST MUST MUST MUST GO EAT IT! IT'S SO SUPPER YUMMY OMGOMGOMG $2.50 only!!! It's kinda small around a little longer than your hand size, BUT OMGGGG I bought 2 lah!!!

It's even more dasiofaslfkasfas with mayo, tomato and chilli!



you won't regret it!!!!

mmmmmmmmmmmm. Took a bus back with Billy, met Jeremy, where we stopped at the pasamalam to buy some food AND GUESS WHAT, THE PASAMALAM GOT SELL POTATO WEDGES!!! OMG I'm so going back there tomorrow to buy. Small 1.80, big 2.80! I was quite full so I got the small one BUT I'M DEFINITELY GETTING THE BIG ONE TOMORROW.

:D :D
I was really sleepy though, so I fell asleep after taking a shower hahaha.

Had 13 hours of sleep O.O, and I woke up playing Restaurant City and Pet Society.
Here I am now, blogging, and procrastinating. Damn.
I'm going off after this to study.

I want to have more of this life everyday.
Love y'all everyday.
toodles.



Wednesday, April 15, 2009
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you


Do you still remember this song?

I don't understand what happened, what made everything seem so heart wrenching, so painful to know, to experience. Was it because I was rude to Momo in the morning?
It was horrible today, every moment, every second, that look of contempt on your face, hearing all those things, fearing things, knowing things, understanding things, and finally losing things.


It's funny how this year has turned out to be.
How a word, so simple, so common, and yet so jokingly said can turn out to be misunderstood, passed from ear to ear to every single one, and brainwashing everyone.
How a mood changes so fast, how things changes so fast, how time changes so fast, how a relationship changes so fast.

It's scary, how much you can doubt, how much your heart beats, afraid to know something. Everywhere it just all seems like lies, and deception, as though there's no one to trust. Everything I had once said now all seem so vulnerable, as though you can practically hear them being said. Everyday just seems like another thing to repeat.

I'm pathetic.
I hear so many things again and again, and I want to tell you.
I know I'm ugly, I know I'm fat.
I know I'm a bitch, I know I'm an idiot trying hard, I know I'm a retard who don't belong.
I know every other bad thing you think I am, I know I am those.

I'm a bad friend.
I'm a useless person.

I've lost everything I've ever cared for.

I thought I could live high, but I'm just not worth it.

Life doesn't feel as meaningful anymore, right now.
toodles.



Saturday, April 11, 2009
HELLO.
Slept late, and woke up early for History remedial today, and because of a stupid unlucky downfall this morning happening to both Jeremy and I, we both got there late, opps :X

History passed so quickly! lovelovelove history so much hahaha. Hope I can do well for the SBQ, I'm scared I didn't state the purpose correctly :/
Can't wait to learn about Hitler after June :D

After remedial, showed Shereen some realllll cute DS games, heh before she went for contemp, and than me and Jeremy took a bus back home, and ate KFC (where we were so hungry, D1 coleslaw change to cheesefries never tasted that good before), before walking around a pasamalam refreshing our childhood memories, and having a good laugh :P

Thank you to Desiree, Pebbles & Mr Lee for the following pictures ^^
SPORTS DAY, on last Friday (which already felt like two weeks ago lol)



Well, I was still nervous, in fact thinking about it now reminds me of the butterflies again. ~_~

Australlia was the flag our class had to do during the camp! Cooooool, while 1N1 was our lovely Spain, ahhaha. It looked really nice, the flag, seem to match our class colours/people well, somehow.





I liked the second shot, with Pebbly's ohso stable hands, plus the flag, and how everything else went, it looks doubly nice! ^^

After the first lower sec 400m run, the lower sec boys were not ready, so immediately we were next. At the 4th lane, I kept jumping up and down, kicking my legs, and finally the gunshot, and back to my jog.

I hate how 400m starts, when everyone goes off in different direction, and I'm just thinking "ok, like a normal jog, like a normal jog", and just try to jog slowly first to gain energy. It all passed very quickly, overtaking, feeling worser down at the legs, and panting heavily, Si Ying was far in front and I had no energy to sprint at all.

The moment I reached the finishing line my legs couldn't even carry me up, damn it. I got second, even though I slipped from the heats, it's okay, Si Ying is a really fast and great runner and in fact she shld've won in the heats too. Phew, thank you to the people who helped with my cramp.

It was soooooooper hot.



And the cool thing was that they were selling cotton candies and ice balls! I def went to try the ice balls, I've read them in books, and some stories where the description of them always starts with, "It was a humid day, and I had 5 cents left. I walked up the path and saw a stall selling ice balls. I watched the uncle shaping the ice kachang into a ball, pouring syrup on it before handing to me..." so on, forth, whichever those old kampong stories told.

Heh, it's quite cool.
I liked the purple syrup, but they didn't use it often :(



Hui Juan got 2nd for 200m WOOT! YOU ROCK :D
Soon after a long break, while I tried to regain my tempo with my legs, hoping I can still run properly for the relay, 100m begun and ever so quickly, it was over! Chin Yen got 4th, good job :D

It felt so soon, already the relay. I was doing my best to try feel as though the pain wasn't there anymore boy hell was I nervous.
Soon after the lower sec, it was us.

I stood at the last track, watching Chin Yen starting off, before passing to Emily, and than Chian Yin OMG I was like cheering calling Chian Yin, muttering "c'mon c'mon" under my breathe, and soon she's here, I got the baton and I just ran off, omgomgomgogmog if you ask me I still love being relay's last runner, so much better than 400, where that run feels so long and painful.

WE GOT FIRST YAYEYAYEYAYEYAYEYAEY :D
love my team, thank u so much emily, chian yin and chin yen!!!!!!! without you guys we couldn't have won!!!!
I had another massive cramp lol, and I could only crane my neck to try and watch the boys run. I couldn't tell what position we got, but it turns out we got 2nd! WHOOHOO!



Me going to take my Javelin medal I think.
Thank you Hui Juan and Rachie for that day in Javelin, btw! ^^ and thanks Mdm Lim for helping me to get up on the stand.





yeah man the relay people!

After all the prizes have been given, it was the overall champion.
Upper sec, we were all holding our breathe. I mean, we all thought most probably E4 or N2 or something could've gotten it.

"3"
*gonna pee*
"E"
*gonna squirt*
"TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

OHMYFGOD.
I didn't expect that at all!!!!!!!!
screamed screamed screamed, everyone cheered WHOOHOO 3E2 YOU ROZZZZZZZZZZZZZZCZXZXZ.



yeah man!
3E2 has everything!



i love you 3e2!
like what jeremy says, "being a chairman of 3e2 is not so bad after all" hahaha!





We are the architects of our destiny indeed (:



After sports day, Shereen, Bernard, Zigui, Andre and Bank we all went to Shahey's house. heh.



Andre's disc, we watched Slumdog Millionaire there!

At first it started off leaving us a little confused, than everything slowly fitted into place, and we're just captivated into the story, it was simply wonderful!



I really really enjoyed the show.

The concept was so fresh, something so different and unique from every other. No wonder it won 8 awards, from part by part, the events, and I tell you LATIKA LOOKS HELL LOT LIKE MS POORANY. hahahaha!

I tell you, GO WATCH IT. It's not even suitable to be NC16, so selfish, so us below 15 teens can't share that wonder. The only thing 'mature' is when Salim says "pussy", and some "fuck", and that 'violence' where the man blinded the little boy with acid. lol.

Thanks guys for the fun afternoon, and Shereen for helping me with my shoes, and letting me lean against you and stuff.

Aside from Sports Day, I spotted another Twilight bus.
*drool*





You know I hate myself so much for not collecting all those newspaper cuttings of Twilight, what kinda fan am I :(
I only have 2! Damnit.

One random day in the Com Lab playing, Jeremy and Abdullah looking like game freaks LOL, Abdullah is hell cute with his fart sound, curly hair and eyes as though bulging out.



Old addiction back :)



Actually it's Momo.
She wants the free pan pizza, so she like spent a total of $22 already, on 6 packet of lays. lol. She just bought 4 yesterday, and I've already downed one.



Caley.

OH, and another new addition to the family :D



A panda pouch!
THANK YOU CHIAN YIN SO MUCH!!!!!!!
Thank you thank you thank you THE MOMENT I SPOT A FAMILY GUY POUCH I'MMA GETTING IT FOR YOU ;)

Momo gave me stickers, haha!
From now on, any letters I'm writing to anyone will have that in it.



And a note from Bernard,



It really cheers me up reading it, hahaha so cuteeeeeeeeee ^^

It's so going on my deviant.



Thanks so much mrKay :)

I tell you, exams are coming already, it's so fast! I'm not even prepared.
I've tried starting with Chemistry notes, but time is really gonna run out soon D: 30th April is already the English Paper, followed by a weeks' worth left of studying than Mother Tongue paper, followed by the other subbies. Oh gosh.



I'm trying to keep my focus on, and to study hard, and to stop procrastinating, and getting easily distracted.

I must:
Get at least an A for A maths & E Maths, or not a B3 for A Maths.
Get at least an A for Physics and Chemistry, or not a B3 for Chem.
Get at least an A for Chinese and English.
The rest hopefully I can get A too ):

Core Geog people need to memorize one whole load of chunk, A Maths need to understand the concept quickly, be able to do (which I think I just failed the last test on chapter 3), Physics argh able to understand and do, and Chemistry, just being able to do the paper, and E Maths, hopefully getting over my hatred for Graph and understand + do well for it.

How do I squeeze it all within 2 - 3 weeks?!
GAHHHHHHHH I. Must. Not. Be. Distracted.
study. study. study.



lol :/
I'm sure everyone else is stressed.

WELL.
I've been playing Pokemon Diamond, where my pokemon is Chimchar! It has evolved to a weird looking Monferno monkey now o.O.
I've also been playing Pet Society and Restaurant City! heh.

but really I'll limit myself. by 7 tonight later, no computer, only studying. lawlz if i can keep up to it :P

Well, that's all for now.
I've finally mastered both hands of Luo Xiao Yu! I'm gonna try to learn the Morning Exercise now :) Sigh, LXY is still better at potraying those feelings.

I'mma gonna go eat lays!
Love y'all every, every day.
toodles.



Friday, April 10, 2009
HELLO.
Gosh, feels like forever since I've last updated.
Good thing this time is that we've all had an early week off, a day earlier I guess.
TGIT for this occasion only O.O.

Let me update my KL pics first :D
The 2 day 1 night spent there felt so quickly, yet so slow!

FIRST, ahem.
I need to start with an addition to my family.

*drumrolls*


































OMFGZX WHAT IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT.
THE.
HECK.
IS.
THAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





OH MY GOD!

WHAT IS THAT BLACK THING?!!!!!

*tries to be humble*
DS Lite only la.
you know, that NINTENDO DS BLACK LITE thing? where you tap tap tap, and play games like COOKING MAMA, LOONEY TUNES CARTOON CONDUCTOR, WARIO TOUCHED, POINT BLANK, NINTENDO DOGS, you know, those small things.

.
.
.

OH WHATEVER.
YAYAYEYAEYYAEYAEYAYEAYEY I GOT MY DSLITE!!!
Due the exams coming extremely quickly, plus homework, usually I come home doing those revisions/completing e assignments first, bathe, than before sleeping I'd play DS Lite.

At times I come back earlier, like reach around 7.30/8, I'd play it first for about an hour before going into homework!
It's sooooo fun, I've yet to finish trying out all the games I have in it.

Oh, did I forget to add? :P
As the seller was Jie's friend, I've practically all the games into one card for the price of one game, lol how lucky is that! I can play nonstop.

HAPPIEST THING; I'VE GOT MY LOONEY TUNES CARTOON CONDUCTOR!
It's very nice to play, like DJ Max, but you've gotta tap it according to the beat, and the tunes are all so reminscing, you simply just think, "hey!!! hell familiar, i've heard it before!"

^^ ^^ ^^ yayayayayayy.
I can't wait to let other ppl try the uber cute games, heh!
Wario Touched is one such, very very very cute.
I can go KL with it! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

:D
I was supposed to be at TB house to spend the night there, but we both fell asleep hahaha. Woke up at 5, speeding back there, had a light breakfast before we all made our way to the checkpoint.

Damn, I regret for not bringing Gossip Girl's disc, or Joevenn's family guy. @#%!@%!@#%!@#%!@, and I dunno where did all the good discs of Papa's went to! In the end we only have a "3 little pig and a wolf" or something.

Still good, but a little boring.



Jie and her friend, Michelle ^^

Watched, played DS a while (before getting the dizzy spell), slept, woke, talked, played DS, looked around, sung a bit, slept, and by the next time I woke, we reached this little stop where we could go buy some things from a mini provision shop.

I found this KitKat ice cream o_O.



I was curious, but after opening it, it just looks dumb lol.



Pathetic :P just one long kitkat stick in the middle, and the chocolatey stuffs there doesn't even taste as good as a chocolate, like got coffee or something mixed.
eeurgh, not that nice.

We went to eat after that.
Papa and me grinning away :D



Michelle jiejie and us.





Oh, look at this wrap.



I thought it's like popiah or something, but actually inside,



It's chicken!

You should not be using your fingers as it's super oily, so only skilled people with chopstick should handle the job of opening it :P

It tastes quite good, yum.

Anyway, we had our tummy filled, we continued driving towards Mid Valley, before finally reaching the hotel, woah cool. I liked the entrance, there these huge vases of flowers all in a row, it looked really nice!





Took pictures while waiting to be registered in.





^^

We were on the 18th floor, and we were super excited to get in!
The moment we reached the door, they all started knocking the door first. I was puzzled, but than it clicked, oh, ghosts, lol.

It's kind of, better you know, a bit more 'polite' that before you 'intrude' their privacy, you knock to tell them, hey, i'm coming in. Lessens the chances of them 'bothering you'.

As we got in, woah the room was big! 2 queen-sized beds side by side, and everything, wahahaha!
Jie then threw her shoes aside and said, "Must anyhow throw shoe." That, I was also bewildered. Michelle jiejie explained that because if you put your shoes neatly, the ghost/spirit would be tempted to wear it, or use it. lol that made my goosebumps rise.



OUR HOTEL! :D

And their really cool toiletries/showerknob and showerspace.







THEY HAVE DISNEY CHANNEL ON THEIR TV!

Only that cartoon channel, the rest are either football/sports channel, one channel that features places around the world, a malay news channel, and some minor things I can't remember.

MR BEAN WAS ON! hahahah! yaye.



Watched, snuggled in, played DS again, unpacked a little, and soon we left our room for shopping!

Note to self: never shop at malls near/beside/in the hotel. Branded goods, expensive things. I managed to buy a pants at Padini though :X

I was looking around at Topshop and there was this really gorgeous pants, and a shirt! It was hell ex though, 249 and 113 :( didn't buy it aw. Hope it see it again somewhere in Singapore for a cheaper bargain.

Topshop shirts are weird, some. I mean, they're really good and nice but you know there are just this few which look like those kind of shirts you can find and buy in Bugis street and such, it's kinda dumb for something that can look that worthless cost you a bomb lol.

We took a taxi to Sungei somewhere as there is nothing that's worth for us to buy :P

The place we arrived in is like Singapore's Far East Plaza, but the difference? oh ho ho ONE FLOOR, can walk around for 2 hours cannot walk finish! That's how big it is! Bought quite a lot of stuffs. *cough* it was also my big ibrahim day.

After a long day, we took a taxi back to the hotel to put our stuffs, before going out to meet Michelle jiejie's friend.



A picture to mark the end of our shopping journey. hahaha.

Michelle jiejie's friend came to pick us up, and than drove us to Kojong area or something, where there's this pub cafe. Gawd we were all super hungry, I ordered one western plate set with rice!

After eating, and some chatting, we played card games! LOL that's when it's helllll funny.



We played daidi at first, but it was boring. I suggested Cheats, that one from Neopets, and after teaching we all played, HAHAHAHAH it's super super hilarious, the guys were so cute, and it's like daring your own guts to catch someone! The rounds lasted forever, there was just so much laughter :P

After about 2 3 rounds of Cheat, we played this other really fun game, something like Black Jack, testing your luck hahaha, we played with beer, argh everyone was so cute! Time seemed to have past very quickly than.



I still don't really fancy beer specially when you can taste the foam, but it's all for fun. It was nearing 4, Jie and me had to go. I was dreadfully sleepy already. Took photos to remember that crazy wacky night ^^





The waitress had to wear that horn hairband thing Mr PT gave me! hahahaha!

Ah Yong drove us back, and we all just changed to our night clothings, turned on the telly (for comfort reason), switched on some small lights and slept almost immediately.

By the time I opened my eyes, it was only because Papa was knocking on the door. I tried to ignore it as the knocking grew louder, but it only got worse when Papa started calling the room phone LOL, I had no choice but to answer it.

It was already 10 and we had to book out at 12. I spent time watching the telly, which had Kim Possible Movie before I went to bathe :X
There wasn't enough to draw the water for the tub, so I didn't get to use it aw T.T

We got out, and drove to Time Square to have some mini shopping before we head back to SG.
We decided to eat at KFC! YAY hahahah, now KL's KFC is waaaay different from Singapore.

Almost all of the menu includes rice!
What's more, they don't have cheese fries, they have cheezy wedges!!
POTATO WEDGES!!! I was so excited.





:D yaye.
I wanted to buy more, but by the time I'm done with my meal I'm really full, so I decided not to pursue it (but now I'm dying to eat it T_T)



The chicken was slightly better than Singapore's, and a little bigger, but nah not much to compare.
Oh, one thing, that would be the price. IT WOULD COST LIKE LESS THAN $4 IN SINGAPORE, a 2 piece meal change to cheese fries!!!!!!! Damn, some more can get with rice also, totally fulling lah!

Their Mac is also huge, even though we didn't go in :P



Hurhur.

Walked around further there, bought some shirts and stuffs, OH MY THEY HAVE AN INDOOR ENTERTAINMENT PLACE OR SOMETHING.
GUESS WHAT. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. THE MALL IS SO BIG, IT CAN HOLD AN INDOOR ROLLER COASTER!!!! How cool is that!!



It's even bigger, in size than Westmall!

Papa told me to go and ride but I really don't have the guts, I wouldn't want to risk my life lol seriously, there was barely any safety nets or whatsoever in case the train like went unstable or something!

You also only have one bar that lies on top of your lap for you to hold on to/to secure you!
That is so not enough, HELLO there's a loop de loop!



lol I'm so not gonna risk my life.

OH AND THEIR ICE CREAM THERE GOT ORANGE SHERBET IN MENU ONE. SOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! :D

I immediately got one with rainbow topping, omg yaye yaye yaye! hahahaha. Had a great time eating it. That sweetness, sourness, that heaven-like feeling, *swoooooons*

NEAR 4. We started to drive back to Singapore.
Another long 4 hour journey back.

I fell asleep for quite a long time I think, and when I woke up it was raining rather heavily. It feels kind of nice, even though at times like that you wished that the car had a nice comfy bed, but I was content enough. Thank you Papa for driving so far and for so long :D

We stopped by at JB and ate, went to buy some gum and CD/DVDs and went to the checkpoint.
Phew, was really tired by the time I got back home even though I slept, unpacked, showered, packed bag for school and went to sleep.

I had a good time there ^^
The only thing I hated was the lack of security.

It's like, everywhere you go you have to be super mindful of your bag and stuffs in case someone just comes running and snatching it away, it feels uncomfortable having that constant fear. I can't even take out a DS Lite or to take pictures out in public properly without having to think twice, or to have Jie reprimand me!

@.@
I'd be going back in there again soon to JB I think, with Jie and Kor, so fill me up with orders k :)

It was a good 2 day getaway from the hustle and bustle of a normal SG life.
toodles.



Saturday, April 04, 2009
HELLO.
Sports day is finally over, and I can't help heaving a hugeeee sigh of relief.
I'm glad finally I don't have to worry, don't have to try to train and upkeep my stamina and stuffs, and lastly the butterflies leaving my stomach :)

WHOOHOO. last event to feel all "omgomgomgomgomgzzzzzzzz icantdoit" about.
I'll blog about it properly when I get home, with all the pictures Desiree took, yaye thanks girl for uploadin so many!

I'd like to thank some people first though :D
Chinyen, for helping me stretch my legs all the time, trying to make my cramps better.
Samuel, Johby, Billy, Leddin and the other guys who were there who was trying to cool me down and giving advices.
Shereen, Qing Ling, Jeremy, and some others who were just there to help try to make me feel less pain.

I'm sorry I'm not able to name all of you, because I couldn't really see you guy's face. Thank you all so so much :)
At least I'd known who would've helped despite of what had happened.

Well, I can't believe I got injured so badly during Sports Day and caused so much dramarama @.@ so sorry for such a big fuss over me. I don't really know what had happened, it could've been because I overstrained my legs. The cramp at my thigh, that pain was really unimagineable (yes i know im using it again, s). I never experienced such a thing before, lol at least it prepares me for what would come again I guess.

It's still not alright yet, and I'm not really able to stretch or bend down properly, but I'll manage. Hope it gets better by Monday :D

It's 5:55AM, and I'm off to KL.



Apparently that's how attractive it's supposed to look.

ididntseeyou:(
toodles.



Thursday, April 02, 2009
You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
(Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh

Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)

Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river
(Cry me, cry me)


Justin wrote that to Britney after they had broken up.

Wish I could do the same and at least express feelings in another form, instead of my boring stories, stories and stories. It's getting easier and easier to decipher, anyway.




Credits: Lara


I feel pretty dead these days.

Hmm, full force of consultations next week, thank you very muchly for the cancellation of band today, and also airgato to funny cheerful people like shereen bernard, fathih, billy, nicholas, darren and jeremy, and also the new-great bus rides back with weixian syafiq and jeremy :)

Finally tomorrow, Kor will be here to fix the connections, and the router back properly, get a ds lite, and than the day after that I'll be driving off to KL for two days, and return back on Sunday loading with new stuffs, plus orders from sher, cy and vivi :D

And hopefully, by Monday, another new week, another new week, another new week, another new week, and than it's exams. 22nd May, after finishing the marking of scripts, some days of post-exams activities, and it's the 1 month holiday, where finally everything can settle down and rest, and I can cry.



I'm starting to like the Keane's songs plenty plenty :D

I try to picture the girl
Through a looking glass
And see her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin' it easy
Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously

And try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
And see him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're making after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
And the order of the primates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is this assembly singing of gratitude
Practicing their lovin for you

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Takin' it easy
Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously

And singing out
And just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
You see nothing is ever as it seems
Yeah this life is but a dream


yepppp g-r-e-a-t song, luv luv luv.
I'll live high, mr mraz. I will. thanks syairah heehee.

wish me luck tmrw, hopefully I do well, even though the sec 4s will be really pwoah and just do greater, and also to all the other participants~
don't worry if you didn't get in, like what mr samuel always says, "it's not about winning, it's the participation". yep, even though you didn't get in, at least you secured us some points, eh? best sports class we shall aim :) i'll still love ya the same.

happy happy HAPPY doo. doo. doo.
toodles.