23 january
enex04@hm.com
Sunday, June 22, 2008
HELLO.
I had a great time playing viwawa with emily. haha.
LOL, so surprised to see each other.
We played sushido first. :D
After that, we played Match It! LOL.
Very cute themes, Food, Cocacola(!!), Wahjong, Sushido.
She won some, I won some. xP
Pretty self-explainatory.
I can't wait, yet I can't be bothered to go school tomorrow.
I can't wait to see some people, like Emily, and others again, yet my heart sinks at the idea of school's melo-drama happening again, those wave in and out emotions, chinese and the examinations coming closer, which streams us to sec 3, a whole new class with whole new bunch of friends.
I've not settled on what I want, whether or not pure science, or triple, whether or not art or design & tech, whether or not literature, history, or geography. I can't find a good teacher who knows all the terms of these well, so they can explain to me what and what is what, what do I need to go what poly, which job do they think fits me the best.
Yeah, I have my ideas on being a DJ, Lawyer (mostly dad's), Magazine Editor, Archi/Interior/Exterior Designer, Party Planner (erwin) and (okay, just dreaming like sis) Air Stewerdess.
What do I need to do, to be a Magazine Editor & Party Planner?
I can be a part-time DJ.
But what do I need? What must I study? What's the L1R4 point I must get? Which poly is best for me? What subs should I take, which subs do I like?
I do not know at all, I can't make up my mind.
There's so many things I want yet slowly being ticked off by dad.
I can't follow my heart, because even my heart doesn't know what I want.
Gosh, but if I don't start thinking now, my future'd be wreck.
Argh. I procrastinated alot today, damn me.
If you guys don't want to think any jobs that you want to do now and plan early (while you're at sec 2), you'll end up doing this while browsing online for a job:
Phone scam, Kidnap scam, Email scam, Online scams, they're everywhere.
Don't end up being a cheater, or scammer, or someone who're just victims.
Now why am I saying this, when I'm still only young?
Silly me for thinking too far.
I guess I can't help it.
Education's not the only thing I have to mind too, though.
Friendships are another important priority.
Always the buzzing in the mind, should I do this? Should I do that? Will it hurt her? Will it hurt him?
Sometimes it's so hard to be yourself, when you're trying to figure saying what, or doing what would make them happier. Feeling guilty all the time, beating up yourself and hating one's self all the time, it's all really very tiring, when school starts.
I don't want to conflict any more mistakes with the two girls who're important to me. I'm sorry for all that I've done which've made you guys hurt, upset and angry before. Please never blame yourselves but me. I'm really not a good friend.
Band now's gonna be a concert band to practice for next year's concert band SYF, and after it's back to military. I feel like quitting it once and for all, really.
Who're the people inside it anyway? Do I know them?
Aish, I'm just mixing around the crowd, gees.
Please make me happy :(
I'm having both the school blues, and the school fling.
toodles.
I had a great time playing viwawa with emily. haha.
LOL, so surprised to see each other.
We played sushido first. :D
After that, we played Match It! LOL.
Very cute themes, Food, Cocacola(!!), Wahjong, Sushido.
She won some, I won some. xP
Pretty self-explainatory.
I can't wait, yet I can't be bothered to go school tomorrow.
I can't wait to see some people, like Emily, and others again, yet my heart sinks at the idea of school's melo-drama happening again, those wave in and out emotions, chinese and the examinations coming closer, which streams us to sec 3, a whole new class with whole new bunch of friends.
I've not settled on what I want, whether or not pure science, or triple, whether or not art or design & tech, whether or not literature, history, or geography. I can't find a good teacher who knows all the terms of these well, so they can explain to me what and what is what, what do I need to go what poly, which job do they think fits me the best.
Yeah, I have my ideas on being a DJ, Lawyer (mostly dad's), Magazine Editor, Archi/Interior/Exterior Designer, Party Planner (erwin) and (okay, just dreaming like sis) Air Stewerdess.
What do I need to do, to be a Magazine Editor & Party Planner?
I can be a part-time DJ.
But what do I need? What must I study? What's the L1R4 point I must get? Which poly is best for me? What subs should I take, which subs do I like?
I do not know at all, I can't make up my mind.
There's so many things I want yet slowly being ticked off by dad.
I can't follow my heart, because even my heart doesn't know what I want.
Gosh, but if I don't start thinking now, my future'd be wreck.
Argh. I procrastinated alot today, damn me.
If you guys don't want to think any jobs that you want to do now and plan early (while you're at sec 2), you'll end up doing this while browsing online for a job:
Phone scam, Kidnap scam, Email scam, Online scams, they're everywhere.
Don't end up being a cheater, or scammer, or someone who're just victims.
Now why am I saying this, when I'm still only young?
Silly me for thinking too far.
I guess I can't help it.
Education's not the only thing I have to mind too, though.
Friendships are another important priority.
Always the buzzing in the mind, should I do this? Should I do that? Will it hurt her? Will it hurt him?
Sometimes it's so hard to be yourself, when you're trying to figure saying what, or doing what would make them happier. Feeling guilty all the time, beating up yourself and hating one's self all the time, it's all really very tiring, when school starts.
I don't want to conflict any more mistakes with the two girls who're important to me. I'm sorry for all that I've done which've made you guys hurt, upset and angry before. Please never blame yourselves but me. I'm really not a good friend.
Band now's gonna be a concert band to practice for next year's concert band SYF, and after it's back to military. I feel like quitting it once and for all, really.
Who're the people inside it anyway? Do I know them?
Aish, I'm just mixing around the crowd, gees.
Please make me happy :(
I'm having both the school blues, and the school fling.
toodles.