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Sunday, December 31, 2006
XD Slept at what time yesterday? Guess ;)

Surprising, no? I was fumbling around, looking at websites, and COOL! XD I think I'm back with Habbo once more! LOL. Add me if you want at enex- xDD ..
Will post pictures on Habbo later in the morning 11am *now is 4.06am* XD.
Happy belated New Year :) I'm spending New Year alone as well. Ah well. Getting pretty used to it already. lol.
30th Advent :)

Hum, went to Jeremy's house just now, along with Timothy, Joevenn, Thomas, Nicolette, Carissa, Alvin, Weiliang, Eugene and Hariz just now. I had fun. We reached there first and crammed on the com, and I introduced them to those ghost stuffs, and watched this funny video of a fake Jesus singing "I will survive.". After that we went to play basketball, I had loads of fun. Was on Timothy and Alvin's team, including Jeremy, but he didn't play with us totally lah. I had fun teaming with them, good team mates, but while running to chase the ball, with me and Eugene, I tripped and got a wound on my knee. Ouch x_x It's about 5 - 6cm long and about 2cm wide, ouchhh. Now still open cut, flowing out with pus at certain times, and hurting alot. Had to limp around :/. Argh ouch ouch. After basketballing, we went back to Jeremy's house and played truth or dare. Hahahaha! Had loads of fun.
Once again, pity I didn't get to know Alvin and Timothy earlier. :/ Hum year is ending already. ~ .. After that went home, and crapped on com. Confd with Timo, Jere, Thom and Nicole. XD I was the host. After that Timo and Thom gave e tips on the market pricing, and voila. I think I'm back with Habbo alrd.
That's about my post now oppsie short :X.

And here's LoStsOuL2's GUILD PHOTO!! Yeah man! ;)




Saturday, December 30, 2006
28th Advent. (Forgot to post about it :X)


29th Advent! :)


And sometimes, Neopets gets up on my nerves. >.>


My avatar and font in the boards ;)
I used to be an avid Neopets secret avatar collecter. XD!
The avatar says Garlic'd, and there's my tere'd! :D How matching.


Oh, I have a creep and stupid and lame account, teresazhou, but somehow even though so, I don't seem to wanna delete it. XD .. When I signed up, I picked my exact age, so I couldn't do some stuffs, like neomail and such, and I actually printed out the page, for parents to sign, and sent to U.S, and got my account activated so I could visit those neomail stuffs and such!

For avid neopet players, click on this link to go to an Avatar Help site, and this link for tips to get easy trophies and freebies :)

Cheerios again!



Had quite a fun with that special someone just now. Can you guess who it is? :DDD
I bet you thought it was a boy. I bet you thought #@%$@%#^@&@. WELL PEEPOS, it's just ordinary girl Chloe! LOL. She was suppose to go out, but her mom didn't let, so I asked her if she wanna go with me to Yusof Ishak, and she asked her mom, and her mom allowed. She took taxi to my house, and then I quickly went to bathe, then dried my hair. We left soon, and walked to Yusof Ishak. We walked one big round, before finding the main gate LOL. If I didn't turn right, to this narrow walk way, and just kept walking straight, I could've reached the maingate XD .. We got in, and checked in with the security guard, and he said that the shop which sold those PE shorts and shirts were closed, and the day before (28), then did it open, and it will be sold on Wednesday. Pooh, so much for luck!

We walked back to this bustop, and went to Westmall. In one of these stalls, sold these earrings, 3 for $6. I helped her choose an earring, and she bought a toe ring as well o.O .. After that we went to the arcade, and played two car games. Can't remember the first one, but the car was really suckie. I won anyway! XD. Second was daytona, and I still won. XD After that we went to the Popular book store, and OMG! Singapore True Ghoststories book 15 is out! I liked reading those, and would borrow when I get a chance. And I shall brag at this point! In the selling of book 12, I saw Russell at Suntec City in the big book selling event, in June (It's there for a week in the halls), and I got a hat, a signature in this SGTS notebook. My mom's charity help society thing, called Tzu Chi, which is practically around the world, helping alot of people, was over there selling as well. I would help around, or walk around the big book area there. I introduced my big adult friends I made in that big book event, and one of them bought Russell's book, and got a signature, and a note saying "Hello -thenameoftheguywhichiforgot-, thanks for buying my book and have sweet dreams!" And his signature, on the book. On book 13, MY NAME APPEARED IN THE INTRODUCTORY PAGE LOL!! It was like, "A special thanks to Teresa Zhou for introducing me your friends at Suntec City", and such. I did submit a story which I encountered in my school, believe it or not.

It was during the band day, on a Saturday when I was in primary 3. Nigel and Theodora told me of this ghost boy toilet in deep areas inside the school, and we went there. Nigel felt it was dark and switched on the light. It looked pretty creepy, stuck at the corner of the building. We pushed open the door and my God, the hand dryer just suddenly blowing hard, and it was far from the door hello! I quickly ran, followed by Nigel, and Theodora walk, and I think I remember Theodora saying that we shouldn't have ran, or something. I didn't really thought about that much, and on Monday, I gathered up afew boys in the band, Hakim, Brandon, and so on, I can't remember all paiseh :X .. And we went to the toilet. I had more courage, and I went in alot of times. We got out, and decide to go again. We kept going, for at least, 12 or 13 times, I'm serious. On either the 12 or 13th time, I felt cold, and shivered, and felt scared. I told them to go back, and went along. And seriously, on that night, I couldn't sleep. I keep dreaming that there was this women in white clothes infront of my bed, pulling my legs, or touching it. It went on for at least a week, and finally I went back to the toilet and said sorry, and got out. From then on I really could sleep already. Believe it or not, I am not making it up.

Anyway, after that Chloe bought that book, and I read it while accompanying her to the taxi stand XD. It was about Devil Music, and such. O.o. After that I went to buy that er, bougerade or something, $2, from Delifrance. I like eating it in pieces, somehow. I requested the person to cut it to pieces. After that I bought an ice milo from Mc donald, and walked home eating and drinking from Westmall. It was a good dinner :). Reached home and quickly rushed through my Math's homework, seeked help from dear Amelia, YC and Mad :) They're pros indeed! Dear prawn also offered to help :D After that got to tuition, and we learnt um, Number sequence, and learnt about Fibonacci's rabbits, or theory or formula. Try this question and see if you can answer it:

How many pairs of rabbits will there be in 1 year given that a newly-born pair of rabbits, one male, one female, are placed in a field with ideal conditions?
Assumptions:
  1. The rabbits will not die
  2. Rabbits are able to mate at the age of one month so that at the end of it's second month a female can give birth to another pair of rabbits.
  3. The female always gives birth to one new pair of rabbits (one male and one female) every month from the second month onwards.
O.o You need a pen and paper for this, it takes a while to figure out actually.
Work up your brain abit, by doing this :D
Speaking of brains, Xiaoping recommended this site, simple-iq.com to test and see how much your IQ is.

I tried, and I've got 125, and was left with 30 seconds XD. Try it! :)
I just realized it's 30th December by now already.
Tomorrow it's Darius, Vivian's birthday, and also the New Year Countdown. I should be online, counting down here, and wishing you guys a Happy New Year, and a pig year for you by 12am ;)

Cheerios!



Friday, December 29, 2006
∞ ¥ ↕ ☼║zigui ║☼ ↕ ¥ ∞ says:
mi appeal fail
∞ ¥ ↕ ☼║zigui ║☼ ↕ ¥ ∞ says:
lol
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
YAY
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
YAY
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
YAY
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
AYAYAYAY
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
SO YOU STAYIN IN YUSOF ISHAK? ;DDDDDDDD
∞ ¥ ↕ ☼║zigui ║☼ ↕ ¥ ∞ says:
ya
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
WHOOHOOOOOOOOO
- tere'd\ I'm still afraid.. says:
I CAN DANCE FOR MILES MAN!

Went out with Hariz and Isabelle to watch Death Note 2. DEATH NOTE ROCKS, LIKE OMG WHY DIDN'T I REALIZE IT. WHY DIDN'T I READ THE COMICS. WHY DIDN'T I GO WITH SHERMAIN AND WANYI TO WATCH DEATH NOTE 1?!?!?! OMG! I'm gonna bang my head.
I'm going to Yusof Ishak now, to go collect my P.E stuffs. I'm going there with my special someone ;)))
OH how I wish I don't have tuition at all, actually. I don't really enjoy my maths classes, somehow. Wish I can quit it (yeah I can), but I dunno, I'm reluctant, and I also wanna. sigh ~~
My mom's alright, but she felt the tremour.
Glad she's fine anyway.
(: Happy life happy life. Must strive onnn~!



Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Coolios. Enjoy. :/ Sigh..



FINALLY connections are crystal again.

Earlier in the afternoon, we couldn't access the internet because of the earthquake which happened in Taiwan. It caused alot of problems with the underground cable, causing a world wide connection problem .. The floods also caused some problems. So yeah, that's about it. Had to suffer, and watch TV until just now, when Jeremy called me and told me that I can use Ebuddy. Wanted to use just now, but when I opened the explorer, no connection, so I just off-ed the thing. Jeremy also informed me about the earthquake in Taiwan. My God, that makes me worry too.. My mom's in Taiwan.. Sigh~ Hope she's fine.

Direct report:

The strong Taiwan earthquake, measuring a magnitude of 7.1, damaged several undersea data cables in the region on Wednesday, jamming up the Internet, a Hong Kong phone operator said.

"Due to the earthquake that hit Taiwan last night, several undersea data cables were damaged and Data traffic to Taiwan, Korea, Japan and the United States is affected" said a spokesman for PCCW, Hong Kong's biggest fixed-line operator.

He also cautioned that some Internet users in the region could experience congestion over the next several days.

ns internet providers, StarHub and SingTel, were among those affected, as the incident has resulted in slow internet access.


Just now, the Land Enviroment people came knocking at my door. There were two man. One of them asked if they could come in, I agreed, since well, their shirt proves. They attacked on this plant on the floor, infront of the door. One of the man held onto the vase, while the other took out the plant. They used this fl
Singaporea
ashlight to check, nothing wrong, and placed it back. After that they went to my kitchen, and while I had a hard time holding Caley back, they just checked around, and one of the man checked the toilet. They left soon, and I heaved a sigh. Caley left so many scratches on my body x_x. I bid them good-bye, and went back watching my TV. Hoolah :/

Spcl person o2:
I'm so worried about you, I'm so scared at the same time. Sigh ~ I wish things were back to normal with you again. I miss so much of the lives we had before. I'm already close to breaking down, I'm already close to thinking of you every moment, feeling nervous. I feel everything's my fault now.. Everything.. sigh..
I would post it in my private blog, but I guess that won't be necassary anymore..

I'll update again soon, later at night, some pictures I guess, again. lol.




Tuesday, December 26, 2006
The Letter A

Are you angry?
Nope. O.o..

What is your age?
12. o.O

What annoys you?
To see Caley pee or shit on the floor -_-

Ever been arrested?
Nope. O.o what a question.

The Letter B

Do you live in a big house?
I don't think so.. o.o

When is your birthday?
23rd January. :) Coming in a month!

Who is your best friend?
-Skipped-

The Letter C

What's your favorite candy?
Got alot leh :D

Who's your crush?
No one, believe it or not :/

When was the last time you cried?
The day before.. :/

The Letter D

Do you daydream?
Hmm, yeah, at times.

What's your favorite kind of dog?
Any kind of dog is good :DD

The Letter E

Do do you like your eggs?
My eggs? o.o. What, you mean the ones where sperms have to fuse with? Well, I haven't seen it yet, so I dunno.

Have you ever been in the emergency room?
No.

What's the easiest thing ever to do?
Listen to music. ;)

The Letter F

Have you ever flown in a hot air balloon?
Nope.

Letter G

Do you chew bubblegum?
Yup.

Do you like gummy candies?
Yeap.

The Letter H

How are you?
lol. Fine thanks.

What's your height?
1.57cm.

what color is your hair?
Black?

The Letter I

What's your favorite ice cream?
Chocolate or chocolate chip. YAY :D:D

Do you play an instrument?
Yup. Piano, clarinet, sexaphone and tenorsax.

The Letter J

What's your favorite jelly bean?
I think orange flavour :D

Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?
Yeah:

Tommy asked his Grandma, "How old are you?" and Grandma said, "It's rude to ask old people how old they are." Tommy told to his friend, John, and John asked him to check his Grandma's I.C. After checking it, he told his Grandma while she was eating, "I know you're 69 year old," Tommy said, "And you've got F in sex." Grandma lost her dentures that day.

Do you wear jewellery?
No.

Who do you want to kill?
No one I guess.

Do you want kids?
Er.. It's painful. x.x

Where did you have your kindergarten?
PAP :)

Letter L

Are you laid back?
What's that suppose to mean? O.o

Do you lie?
Yeah I do.

Whats your favorite movie?
Loads.

Do you still watch disney movies?
Yeap :D

Do you like mangoes?
Uh, okay lah o.O

The Letter N

Do you have a nickname?
Yeap. Tere, ter, terwe, terle, ahter, mother teresa, M.T, enex. o.o

Whats your favorite number?
44444444444444444 :D

Do you prefer night over day?
Day, can play whole day. Night, have to go home and sleep, but cooling. No idea O.o

The Letter O

Whats your one wish?
Happiness.

Are you an only child?
Nope.

Do you wish this was over?
What was over? My life? No way. Enjoy life while you can. Life's precious.

The Letter P

What one fear are you most paranoid about?
To hurt someone.

The Letter Q

Are you quick to judge people?
Hmm, depends..

The Letter R

Do you think youre always right?
no.

Do you watch reality tv
yeah.

Whats a good reason to cry?
When you've just been hurt tremendously.

The Letter S

Do you prefer sun or rain?
Both. Rain, when I'm at home, Sun (with clouds covering), when I'm outside. 8D

Do you like snow?
Never seen, or felt before. :(

What's your favorite season?
All seasons. :)

The Letter T

What time is it?
10.24pm.

What time did you wake up?
10am.

When was the last time you slept in a
tent?
Have never done that before. o.o

The Letter U

Are you wearing panties/thongs/boxers?
Panties. :D

Do you prefer panties or thongs?
Panties. Thongs are like, a sai inside your ass.

Underwear or boxers?
lol. Both, I guess. XD

The Letter V

Whats the worst veggie?
The beans. zZz

Where do you want to go on vacation?
Anywhere is fine, except for spooky areas x.x

Where was your last family vacation to?
Malaysia. lol.

The Letter W

Where do you live?
like, Singapore?

The Letter X

Have you ever had an x-ray?
Yup. When I fractured my hands.

The Letter Y

Do you like the color yellow?
Yeah rather :D

What year were you born in?
Cheekens. ;)

The Letter Z

Whats your zodiac sign?
Chickens.

Do you believe in the zodiac?
Not really, I rather believe Horoscope though.

What's your favorite zoo animal?
All sorts :D
-Ripped from Huda's blog. ;) An eye for an eye.

Spcl person o1:
I don't know how I feel to you right now.. but.. I dunno, maybe when I'm older.. maybe it might happen? I dunno lah.. but.. you're really a great guy. Know that.

Hum, listen to Enya - Only time, Natasha Bedingfield - These words, and surprisinglyAnnerlise van der pol - Over it. In my playlist too now. Hum. Don't have much to update now.
Ahh. I thin I'm confused again..



Had fun yesterday. There were both happy and depressing moments. I'm glad, and I hope, that the happy moments were more then the depressing ones. I'm not going to blog very much about it, don't wanna reveal those moments >.>.. Anyway, first time eating at Haagan-Dazz. The ice cream is SUPER yummy. You should try eating it. Yumyumyum, however, you look at the menu, the size looks as though like a tennis ball, but fact is that it's just as big as a pingpong ball -_-.. Kor was paying for everything -cough-. I ordered desirable, a dish with 2 scoops of icecream and 2 toppings, of my choice. I picked chocolate chip and chocolate, rainbow spinkles and cone chips. DAMN yummy can! Must try :D
For dinner, we went to eat at this place called Yokoshibu or something. I had waffle fries.. Didn't feel like eating, very much. After that I got home. Dear lynette got me a shirt. Black and pink one, aw honey thanks very much :D ..

I played Neopets before it was 12am, which means another day, so I can collect my 25th's Advent Calendar's present.


After that, at 4pm, it was time to collect the 26th's Advent Calendar. :D


Heh. Ah well. I'm starving allll over again. Bathed Caley the night before. O.o.. He was guai guai :D Then today, cooked rice for him and mixed with his can food. He eats rice, but only when he has no food, and yeah, he don't have anymore. Mixed with his canfood, then gave him eat. Yumyum, it looked like human food like that. His canfood was peas, and meat, if I'm not wrong. Smell so nice also.. XD.. Then I ate the rest of the rice in the pot, and cooked egg and a Japanese corn chicken, or something. A bigger size of a popcorn chicken. Yummy!
Now for dinner, I'm thinking if I should go over to buy chicken rice.. Goshh, I'm hungry ):



Monday, December 25, 2006
I actually feel like crying all of the sudden ....
I haven't recieved any present from anyone at all, except for my Kor..
I've only given, but yet to recieve...
..What have I recieved yet?

~.~



MERRY CHRISTMAS!


COOL!

add him at northpole@live.com




Sunday, December 24, 2006
LOL! HILARIOUS.

What to do when someone is about to rape you?

Option 1:
Keep scratching yourself, and when the rapist asks why, tell him you have rabies.

Option 2:
PULL his cock and twist it, until he falls to the floor. Twist it totally until you hear a bone crack- oh wait. Does that cock have bones? Anyway, keep twisting and use your other hand start pulling his cock hair. Pluck it out if best, he will be screaming in pain, and then faster run away.
MENTAL NOTE: Get home, WASH YOUR HANDS THOROUGHLY, WITH JOHNSONS POWDER, SHIKOBUTSU, OR WHATEVER! JUST WASH, UNTIL 1 HOUR ALSO CAN.

LOL! Hilarious, is it not?

This duck cute or not? :D Looks like a real duck, good colours,
and a correct spelling and word for the sound it gives out.
Good mah? Pretty mah? Satisfying mah?

Got another competition wor.

How wor? Is this cuter and better? Or is the other one better? This one looks like a toy duck, it's fat and yellow, lips have lipstake, and also have the correct spelling and word for the sound it gives out.

Hmm, use which one for my MSN display picture? -CRISIS!

I'm starting to have my blogging bug..



Played Runescape with MB just now. We were exploring places around, and we cooked stuffs at the kitchen. Runescape teaches you how to cook, eh?


That's how you make an Apple pie. First you click on the pot of flour and the jar of water, and make a round dough as shown above, then put it in the pie plate and it would look like the plate below the dough, then add the apple into the plate, and you would get the plate below the apple. Then cook it, and you can feed it to a horse!


That's how you make a bread. First mix the jar of water with pot of flour, then make that round dough, then cook it and voila! Bread :)

That's how you make a stew. Get a bowl of water, then you put a cooked meat and a potato in it, and voila! Stew.

That's how you kill a cow -cough-


And that's me banging my head. LOL!
After that I went to Neopets to get my Advent Calendar :)


Coolios. That's all for my post, then! (:

Merry Christmas Eve :D



Saturday, December 23, 2006
Now when I listen to christmas carols, I feel like crying.
None of my familys' celebrating with me.
Sigh :/

Herbie Fully Loaded on Disney channel 7.30 to 9.30. Watch it yeah :)

Played Neopets just now. XD


Enjoy :)





This is really amazing.
Trust me, this is no trick, or no horror, or to frighten you.
Follow the intructions. :)
If it's too small, click on the image to enlarge.
Credit is in the bottom right of the image.
:) Enjoy!



I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
Don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I suddenly like Jessica Simpson o.O .. and Jay chou :D Listen to 3 of her songs, and 8 Jay chou songs in my playlist .. I like Faraway, White windmill, Dong Feng Po, Starry Mood, Far Ru Xue and Always Head North. If anyone knows the chinese han yu pin yin of the English title for Jay Chou songs in my playlist, please tell me yeah. x_x most people dunno chinese songs in english title, so I must know their han yu pin yin. :D
My god sis's didi came to fix her com le. She told me com can use, but she's going to buy battery for the com. She said CPU battery low. :/ hum.
Was reading Chapter 1 of my Geography textbook. Solar System :D It said Pluto was no longer a planet, but a dwarf planet. Although I have heard that before, I still come to say there are 9 planets in the Solar System. If I do get wrong, I would say, "add the new planet mah!" .. A new planet was discovered, and they named it S something. If I'm not wrong, they discovered another 2 more planets, but still researching on it. Hum.

Didn't go for tuition yesterday, no mood. Had to lie that I slept until 9 after that long hair day .. Blah.. I so want my old hair back.. this straight hair is so.. bleah! Certain faces look good in straight hair, but mine doesn't. DAMNNN TRICIAAAAA... #$%@#^&*#@..
I need to go out again and buy 2 more presents.. but I don't know what to buy.. :S .. Oh cliffhanger, gimme some clues on what to buy....

Anyway, in the mean while, enjoy Jessica Simpson - I don't belong to you :)
I find the lyrics to be most meaningful, and one more story from a quotepage:

A long time ago, on Earth, there was a human boy walking on the shores of the sea. He noticed that there was a starfish lying on the shore, and knowing that the fish would die without water, he threw the starfish back into the sea. The waves came up, and another starfish came ashore. He threw it back into the water, and another starfish came ashore.
He kept doing it, and an old man noticed, and said, "Boy, it's useless. Everytime you throw it back into the sea, another starfish still get washed ashore. It means nothing to you at all. Let it be."
The boy kept quiet, and said, "But it means alot to that starfish to live."
Life is precious to all beings and things.





Friday, December 22, 2006
I allow myself to fall back to the misery, again. Yesterday, so many events stirred up once more, and so did today. Everything just hit that once fixed feeling break again, into a pile of dust. My soliloquy would always to try and deny, and try to look on a side happily. Now, my mouth's just wide shut. Coming home from such a disastrous event, I still have to face a yet even more. My mood of updating on happy stuffs just suddenly vanished.
I know obviously I can't write anything out here without you either updating about it and dedicating a sentence or two to me, or you telling me on my MSN about it, or tagging "this is a bitch's blog", or so.
For so long, after I make you angry, you would tell me, "I dun care if u hate me or not", and start trying to make my curiosity arouse, by saying "you dunno xXXXxxXx, so haha too bad". I can either figure it, or just leave it to be something I don't care. Through knowing you, I only can say I am not bragging how good my english is, and I'm not gaining pity. Yet after that, you would still say, "tere, gimme a chance pls", and so on. After I make you angry again, you say the same thing, then after, "tere, gimme a chance pls", or so on. This is the 5th time, after that incident, if I haven't counted wrongly, that you've said that. I talked to you, because you were nice yesterday, if not trust me, I would choose not to reply.
Now that you don't care whether I hate you, don't care about anything of my concern, thinks that being confident is against the law, getting whacked or beaten up by the street means I will die because I can't get your help, fucking my mother is what I'll do, failing my O levels is a confirm, and being sad forever is what you want, okay, you make your word liao.

I'm denying still again.
Breaking all contacts off, is seriously NO talking, NO exchanging gifts, and so on. Seriously, I think maybe that present I bought for you is wasted. I would still want to give it to you, but, get the situation now. Maybe I get someone pass it to you?
Yes you made me have no mood to go on Monday, other than my hair. You ruined my Christmas. Thanks alot Gabriel.
Caley seems to feel depression coming.
He pees and shits on the ground everytime I am depressed, making me more depressed.
I just went over to see him and his pee was humoungous. lol.

Sigh I just ruined Christmas for so many people... I am so horrible... oh shoulder, where can one drop from the skies. oh seas, where can you appear magically for me to scream. oh someone, where can you appear for me to pour to?!?!?!

oh Heavens..

I'll try to update as happily as possible.. yesterday I was suppose to meet Shermain and Pris at westmall. I met up with pris first, then we left together. Saw hongsing while waiting for 945. At guilin stop, Chloe came aboard, so qiao~~ .. Chatted around, then went up to the hall. Gathered awhile and soon Mdm liza told us that inside the report book, at the last page, there would be a slip pasted, informing you on your school posting, including with a CD, which has many funny shorts in the Graduating party, so on... I heard Chloe muttering, "please be teck whye please be teckwhye..", and after checking her book, "YAY TECK WHYE!" .. o.O actually it's obvious she'd get there. C'mon, 207 to a 189. Confirm can get in. After that my turn, Chloe said she'd help me check, and said, "yeaaah, yusof ishak." I didn't felt anything much :/ .. this school was just chosen by my sis. She doesn't let me choose anyway. After that almost called everyone in my hp list, telling them I got into yusof ishak, even the people I don't normally call. hohoho. Chunting passed me a present, it was a cute little dummy, with a graduation hat and clothes. Thanks Chunting truckloads :). Hung it on my wallet. After that walked home with Sher and pris. We ate nasi ayam along the way, and chatted with Eugene and Ram. They got into bukit view. Ate finish and pris went off first. Walked with sher, watching the guilin's rocks tumble down (soil erosion, sher says.), and took some photos, and went back home.

I quickly changed and set off to Jurong east. Got there at 2.30, and waited till abround 3.15, killing time with Nancy Drew, The Hidden Staircase~ Mack and MB came soon, and we took the MRT to Boonlay to buy a present. Bought it, and we took a train to Harbourfront (or lith harbour, as MB says. XD) .. I never been there before, and the station itself looks so pretty! Nicely chosen parts of the station were either with blue tainted glasses, or blue paint. Made it feel really harbour-ish! Mack led the way, and when we got into Vivo, COOL! The floor was shiny and sparkly, I like the floor :D They brought me up to the theatre, and while queueing, I was admiring the stores. They all looked so pretty .. Our 4.35 show was selling fast, so we decided to watch 6.00 show. We went to the top floor, and visited the pet's corner. OMG!!!! THE PETS THERE ARE SO CUTE!!!! Look at the hamsters, and gerbils! CUTE!!! KAWAII!!! and the doggies, OMFG!!! DAMN CUTE MANNN!!! and the miniature schnauzer, 2months old. EVEN CALEY DIDNT LOOK AS CUTE AS THEM. OMFG!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! cute cute cute! I was squealing here and there, and MB and Mack kept giving me weird faces -cough-. After that we went to this comic/anime store. Mack and MB looked at some Naruto figurines, lol I almost tempted to buy one for someone. I was reading Shin Chin, La Bi Xiao Xin .. After that we went out to the water area. The most shallow was until my ankle, then the rather higher one was until my knee. Walked around in the water, and enjoyed the view, until someone came smoking -.-. Then went back to browse through the shops. We went to see Action World, had some laughs, and I sorta spoilt the auto pencil sharper -cough-, then we went back to the movie le. I bought a coke (no money), MB bought nachos and Mack bought popcorns. Went into the theatre, quite cold. Ate a few pieces of nachos, then movie started. We watched Eragon.

It's a nice show, the dragon looked really cute, and the effects were well placed, as though real. Cant believe how real the dragon looked. Cool battle scenes, and I think only 1 funny part? =.= .. I thought the part where he got to cast magic on trees and such were cool, like Harry Potter :D and I thought he was smart to pierce through the sword into the Shades in such a clever manner. XD! Ending was happy, CONFIRM got an Eragon II, or so. Where the king fights back with his own dragon. After that we went outside, and watched the view. The road to sentosa from harbourfront really looks magnificent at night. So sparkly and beautiful, glad to have been there, actually. Sentosa looks so pretty too, and having to find out can walk to sentosa, I think next time wanna walk with friends who wanna go sentosa with me .. :D Went back in, and we went to Toys 'R' Us. I enjoy looking at the cool toys, trying their samples. Find it really great, on their technolegy, and how nicely they decorate Barbies (although Polly Dolls definately deproved). Went to the baby section, and had great laughs with them. Barney orchaestra, hohoho. Soon Mack had to go home, so we went back to the MRT. They stopped off at Tiong Bahru, and I went off till Jurong East, then Gombak. Reached home at 10.30. Enjoyed the day thoroughly, (though that night was quickly ruined.)

Today, went to Yusof Ishak. The NCCs guided us where to park and where to go, and (I think), the principal guided us to the hall. We checked the 3 available list on Express, and was surprised to be in 1E1. Tricia said it was the bestest class out of the best 3 classes in secondary 1, and that she was surprised that this year only 3 express class, when in her year got 6. lol. Met Suganthi, my band senior in SAPS :D and we went queueing up. Met Joevenn and chatted with him, and realized Zigui was also in that school, 1E2! WHOOHOO!!!!!! -cough-. Joevenn, Weiming and Nicholas in 1E3. ): aw sad I'm not in their class, or 1E2. Smsed with Blee around, and went to buy books after registering. My form teachers, one male one female, female is a cheena man. Her english abit.. ahem .. Expect her to teach us chinese. Went to buy P.E shirt and shorts, then went to buy books, which costed 218.50, and went to buy uniform.
Their uniform damn special sia. Every tuesday need wear uniform, on other days were the polo t-shirt, which can tuck out. Wear with skirt. Wah, so shiok eh. The polo t-shirt is short lah. Tricia said that their socks has to be high, but can wear Japanese students that type of scrungy socks, but I dunno if now still can or not. First 3 days would be orientation day, need bring P.E shorts and shirt, water bottle and Teen Companion Diary and Pen (although I dunno if it's the same for the other schools).

The booklist was weird, specially at Literature. Was pleasently surprised to find out that it was Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I read it more then 20times, so not really a hard work XD. My thoughts would be, it was delicious. -cough-. Swakoo sister kept nagging about my hair, and persuading my dad to cut it rebond it side layer it. In the end he gave in and I was so damned forced into rebonding and side layering it. OMG!
Conclusion: NEVER REBOND YOUR HAIR.
Why?
BECAUSE OMG PAIN AND LONG. First they told me to go to the basin there, they help me wash. It was relaxing, got cool water and an extra hand to help to wash. after that go to the chair, and she used this towel to dry it, and after that did this painful messaging on my head. OMG pain. then comb to the side layer, then dry hair, then apply white stuffs on it, and I have to wait for 15 minutes I think. then after that she positioned my hair and put under this round thing, which is called the heater, I think. I was shocked to see steam coming out o.O and feel my hair getting heated. after need wait for dunno how long, which to me was long, then after that she removed it and I have to wait for 15 minutes plus again, then she ask me go wash hair, wash finish wait, for a long time, then that painful messaging came again OMG. then dry hair, then wait a long time, then she used this giap thing, giap my hair, and then giap with another machine to make it straighten, and while she was doing that, I got so sleepy I dozed off, and everytime my head falls I quickly tilt it back up. I was dreaming of sleeping on a nice cooling soft comfy bed, but worried my hair would be spoilt (if not waste 100bucks).. that was sooo long to me, and finally when we're done, she applies that white stuffs AGAIN. then after that ask me wait for another loonngg time, and then put that round thing on me again, and after a lonng time, that thing is removed and I have to wait another lonng time, and then I need to wash hair AGAIN. -.- then after washing that painful messaging again, and then wait awhile, and then dry my hair, then it's done, and let me tell you. I LOOK HORRIBLE!
so never rebond hair unless you're hundred percent you look nice, or you'll waste alot of $$.
TRICIA IS HORRIBLE!!! @#^@^@#&#$*$#%..

Was reading the Maths textbook. felt brain stressing already, then read geography. First chapter is cool! SOLAR SYSTEM.
Will read on later I guess. Don't feel like going to tuition. hope I can skip it. sigh ~

hope my entries are happy enough .. muackz.

I'm proud enough to edit my profile, into
sapsyiss 1E1
and at the last sentence, Always proud to be an Anthonian (:



Thursday, December 21, 2006
Should be updating on either tomorrow, or Saturday, telling you about my very fun and happy day with dear MB and Mack :)
Thanks all who tagged, and glad you agreed with the last post.

I got into Yusof Ishak Secondary School.
For those who still do not know,
I got A for Chinese and English, B for Maths and Science, and I got 211 for PSLE.
Tomorrow's the registration at 8.30am. Joevenn, Weiming and Nicholas (boys from my class) would be going to that school.
:) thanks to dear people who were concerned about me!
I reply your tags here:

Elfie: Will give you loads, honey (:
Jo: thank God I didn't switch. XD
lynette: yeah I ate loads of fastfood, I'm happy at that. I'm glad I entertained you my dear. (: you rock better.
daphne: -rapes-!
rena.R: will definately tag you more. :D!
huiting: -gasps- look there! -rapes-
huiting: yup waiting for you to tag. :D!
Lisee: I'm glad you agree, dear!
noelle: Cool! :D I didn't get it before.
huda: okay sure, will link you soon.
Agent 47: Hello my dear :) yes I'm feeling better thanks. I won't starve unless I have the money XD
grassae: I MEANT TAG ON QUIZ .. O.O
huiwen: hahhaa you think of any nice colours that matches me bah :D
ben: thanks dear!
Jo: you rock more lah :D
kat: ahma is struggling with her stick. THANKS FOR ASKING! LOVES :)
huiwen: any colour you think suits me is fine :D
mad: WHOO PORN!
huiting: aw that's sweet :)
Gabriel: o.O? what's that.
E.T: hey mustard. thanks, you too.
Elfie: haha he's nick is E.T :)
Elfie: Elfie and Tere! -rapes-

That's all. THANKS FOR TAGGING. LOVES :D



Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Got from Daphne:

God created everything,
but did he created evil too?

A University professor at a well-known institution of higher learning challenged his students with this question.

"Did God create everything that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"

The professor answered, "If God created everything; then God created evil. And, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then we can assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not answer the professor's hypothetical definition.

The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "May I ask you a question, professor?"

"Of course," replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The other students snickered at the young man's question. The young man replied, "In fact, sir, cold does not exist.

According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total absence of heat. And all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does."

The student replied, "Once again you are wrong, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact, we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily examples of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

So true, don't you think?



Hello :) I came back from Kor's chalet. I enjoyed myself alot, or most of the time. I made many new found buddies ^^ Kinchin, Jeff, Moomoo, Jere, Jon, Ben .. I met all my buddies on maple, and made more friends, oh great day that was. I went there on Friday, and met up with Kor at his house. I saw this pink shirt guy, dunno who is he so didn't talk very much o.O .. then Jeremy came in a taxi and fetched us there. He talked alot on the car, about puppies running up and down his chest XD We reached there and Jeremy introduced himself, and didn't know who I was LOL .. I said, "enex04 lah." then he gave a stun look. "Oh! oh I didn't see your face properly mah!" LOL. After that we talked much more. We went to get the keys to our room. It was Block G 1731. Good 4D number leh o.O Reached there and we shifted the bed around, and while Jeremy tried accessing the internet, we had Harry Potter quizes (he was also a HP fan XD) .. After that a taller guy came, and I learnt to know he was called Xiaoming o.O.. I talked to him, and I learnt he likes cow D: .. His sms tone is Moooooo... Mooooooo.. LOL, he bluetoothed it to me. Next I found another song he has, first the person says Mooo, and then it laughs like one @%@^&@. LOL! It was freaking funny. I bluetoothed it to my hp before to Jeremy.

Jeremy got fed up that the online system kicked him out after every 5 minutes, so he asked me to follow him to ask the counter. We talked along the way, and he talked *formally* to the counter person. After that we went back, and I talked with moomoo, while Jeremy, kor and Jeff left for lunch. I was laughing around with him, LOL he really moos. Its fun talking to him though. After that Jeremy came back to ask me go eat lunch. Moo didn't want to, so I left. We met in KFC, and I had that Daily Saver 5.95 meal with cheesefries:D, a zinger burger and a coke. Jeremy Jeff and Kor had ultimate chicken meal o.O .. After that kor went to check Cheers, and me Jeff and Jeremy walked around, so I got to talk to Jeff. He is an expert on ice cream o.o .. Jeremy bought Ben & Jerry's ice cream, wa piang cup so small $4 leh. x_x.. After that we saw an arcade, and Jeff borrowed a buck from Jeremy so he could play para para game. o.O It's more of waving hands around. I told Jeremy to borrow Jeff's card, put $2 in it and play Daytona with me :D I played a round with him, including with alot of other boys. AND I GOT 1ST PLACE. BAHAHAHHA. -cough-. Jeff was done in his game, and we had enough money in the card for 3 person to play, so we waited for more players and played together with them. This time, Jeff got 1st, Jeremy got 2nd and I got 3rd. I almost beat Jeremy T.T.. After that we went back to the room, and LOL Jeremy picked me up by the leg and Moo by the hand, and they dragged me to the toilet @^@#^&@. Jeff took a picture with my hp x.X .. I banged my way out XD .. After that Moo asked Jeremy to turn to him, and he got a picture in a Fish Eye format or something. LOL! Jeremy looks freaking funny XD! I'll try to upload and show you other days -COUGH-.

Soon I had to go home at 6 to my tuition. Bleh, the topic was Integers practise 2. I didn't get afew though, it's rather confusing. :/ loads of hw. Went home after that and packed my clothes, excited about tomorrow. Meeting dingchao at the MRT.
-dingdong- My hp rang, and I quickly went to change. I left the house and took bus to the mrt. Saw dingchao coming towards me from the other direction. Wah he so hot! LOL. We waited at Jurong East for brendan, and he told us to meet him in clementi. Went there and dingchao called brendan in. We chatted on the train and reached Pasir ris at 11 like that, and went to Kor's room. Reached there and was greeted by alot of people sleeping on the bed o.O .. I met even more new people there, like JonD and MB, aka Kinchin! MB was pretty quiet, then. I left with them and Jeremy for lunch. I ate nasi ayam. XD .. their ayam not nice leh o.0 After that we went walking around. Reached back the room, and MB played com, while l4ikon came. Hohohoho. He is fun XD .. he and jeremy taught me poker o.O .. don't really get veeery much, only get number sequences I think. LOL starting poker you will get around near $800 I think. shiok shiok. XD .. after poker, I played Xbox with Ben. I never played Xbox before o.O but he was playing the fighting game DOA. wah damn fun sia! LOL. Everyone laughed nonstop. He kicks me, I falldown, stand up he kick me I fall down again. This went on and on LOL! laughed nonstop. Soon tommyle and his children came, Celine was one of them whom I knew. LOL tommy was actually humourous. Hahahah, he's rather fun. He called me hi-queen coz I like to say Hi o.o.

Soon it was night time, and honey came. My honey provo, my honey lynette! I gave her a big hug. Oh she's a pretty being lah. :D so honeyish. her sister came too. She added me in maple. she's also rather sweet lah. I entertained them and they watched us play Xbox. After that need start fire le. We went up and down helping to bring stuffs, and once we were done, they started cooking. We couldn't do much, so I brought Belinda to the fitness corner. O_o she asked me to do 10 pushups and do pullups. I cannot do so much pullups one neh :X but pushups can.. After that we went back, although I stayed upstairs most of the time, for some reasons. Kuroya, GhostKS, Nyoku came. They came to the room first, hohoohohoh. I was pleased to see them. Chatted with them awhile, and told them to go down to meet more members. I talked with MB at the top there. After that we took the guild picture. Will post it once my com's fixed x_X. Soon at was 10+, everyone left for soccer except me and mb, moo and jon. me and mb played with the fire. It was fun o.O I fanned the smoke to moo and Jon's direction XD. We used the butter, and candles, and left over for the jelly cake. Ohohho. He kiap kiap, I fan fan. o.O .. After that we sat down talking, and this garbage collecter told us a ghost story in the chalet and at the area we were at o.o.. after that my sis stood on the stone table and did her light dancing or something. My other cousin Emmanuel came, omg I didn't know it was him lah x_x.. my sis had to knock my head and tell me LOL!

Went back up coz it started raining, and me and mb listened to his mp3. He got alot of jay chou songs, almost all his songs all I like lah! and got the songs that I don't have. he'll be sending me lah XD We stayed up late, and around 3 I can play fighting game le. We changed to this fighting game where you can pick up items and hit people with it. LOL!!! it was freaking funny. everyone laughed like siao. Ben ran around and I tried hitting him LOL!! But I lose to him lah :/.. After that I play with Jeff. LOL! also funny, but this time I won him. whoohoo. LOLOL! Damn funny. we played all the way until 6 like that. Moo woke up from his sleep and played with me and mb, I think we're the only two who was awake, but around 6.30 like that me and him feel hungry and sleepy o.O we took around 10mins nap and went back to watch Moo play cars xD play until 9am, then we had to pack up and get ready to leave. We went eating at burger king. I had this set which has bacon, eggs, bread and harsh brown. o.O.. Ate until real full. After that went to korkor house and slept until 7 like that, and my dad came to fetch me home. He brought me to westmall to eat KFC LOL .. after that drive home, and I sleep le. Ahh~ memoriable chalet.

The next day, need go to science centre with kor, MB, and mack. We had to guide students around. LOL one fo the students me mb and mack had to handle runs around and around and around. The science centre was quite interesting, got the human body system, LOL got one big nose and you can go up and down the nostril XD!! and got a water area (not the water works). you watch how water functions, and also it has pet area in it. Got mice, gerbils, hamsters, snake, cockroaches and turtles. It was fun. After that soon go home le, we bought Mc donald and ate it.
It was a fun day, that day as well. hum, went home and had a longgg sleep -yawns-.

My sis com and my com is spoilt now x.x although mine is more of virus infected XD! Well, hope to fix it soon. Then can maple, audition, and gb :D
that's my post for now. thanks for the many many tags and concern (:



Thursday, December 14, 2006
Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I Thy with Thee one.

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always;
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven my Treasure Thou art.

High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's son,
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

I've been denying too long, and now it's stop doing that. It's time to face the world, it's time to face the facts. It's time to look up and learn your mistakes. It's time to replenish before 07 starts. It's time to learn, time to forgive, time to forget. But may it be for all? It's time to be happy. It's time to be cheerful. It's time to be ol' tere. It's time to face the truth. It's time for everything, but hatred and anger. Pain and sadness. Hurt and betrayal.
That is all, nothing more. I'm putting the end of sufferings for two parties. I'm putting the end to everything. Accept it, and face the facts. Each days I may have regret, but each days when things happens again, that feeling goes, and everything's changed. Maybe.. I wasn't meant to be here.. Maybe, I should just end that too. Maybe, it's time to be foolish too? Or maybe, I shouldn't.. It's time, and it's maybe. I don't know.

The artist is the creator of beautiful things. To reveal art and conceal the artist is art's aim. The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things. The highest, as the lowest, form of criticism is a mode of autobiography. Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is fault. Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the vultivated. For these there is hope. They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only Beauty. There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written. That is all. The nineteenth century dislike of Realism is the rage of Caliban seeing his own face in a glass. The nineteenth century dislike of Romanticism is the rage of Caliban not seeing his own face in a glass. The moral life of man forms part of the subject matter of the artist, but the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium. No artist desires to prove anything. Even things that are true can be proved. No artist has ethical sympathies. An ethical symphathy in an artist is an unpardonable mannerism of style. No artist is ever modbid. The artist can express everything. Thought and language are to the artist instruments of an art. Vice and virtue are to the artist materials for an art. From the point of view of form, the type of all the arts is the art of the musician. From the point of view of feeling, the actor's craft is the type. All art is at once surface and symbol. Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril. It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors. Diversity of opinion about a work of art shows that the work is new, complex and vital. When critics disagree the artist is in accord with himself. We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely.
All art is quite useless.


To live life is to have no regrets. To live life is to enjoy, and fulfil what Lord desires. To live life is to do good deeds and to abide the rules. To live life is to live it the fullest, and have no sins and karmas, left behind. Think before you do, think before you say. Think before you do all things that would start or stop a suffering. Think before doing anything, before one is chosen, and one is too late. Think before still things become more oppresive. Think, and think, but not all can always manage that.

And Gab, I will take your words seriously again. For the second time you have said keep contacts off, so you will keep your words, I presume. Anger, is not something you can give away as excuse. I take it seriously now, and I say it once again.
Thanks Odell for all that you've done, and I'm terribly sorry..


Done.



Wednesday, December 13, 2006
I think only one person can understand me right now. I hope that person still does.
Life's back to it's horrizantalo now.

I'm just going to say to that Jerome imposter in a more "mature" way, Fuck off.
You can insult my cheebye for all I care, I don't mind. Cheebyes are just meant for you to urine, have sex, and what, wash? They're just a burden, cheebyes, so okay, it's a fucking cheebye indeed. If you want me to die, you can just simply wait for at least 80years, maybe by then I will die. Other then that, wanna scold me, go ahead. Thanks very much.

I have nothing to update about particularly, and Gab, I don't care what your nick "All jeg vil ha na er venner, men i deres hjerte jeg er som en stov, de wont appreaciate hva jeg gjort" stands for, because I've already found out too much to actually care now. I already said GOOD BYE GABRIEL on my post, and you've said KEEP ALL CONTACTS OFF, and if I were to change my mind, you would be happy to. Other then that, you said KEEP ALL CONTACTS OFF, so keep your words. JUST let Kor be happy and put all the unhappy things aside ..
My only words for you, not to tell you everything, would just be: If you don't know the full story and or you weren't even there to have the proof, please do not assume and take things into your own hands. If I'm selfish, if I want to make Kor feel uncomfortable, go ahead that think what you like okay. I have nothing to say to you.

Elfie and blanket, thanks very much. Couldn't ask for better people :) -hugz- Life's back like PSLE marking days. Everyday crying, not a day of peace. No one cares anyway :)



Sunday, December 10, 2006
Je suis triste, no nier.


HUM! Looking forward to this Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It's korkor's chalet! There's gonna be new faces, soccer, PS2, chitchat, and food! Muahahhaa. It's gonna be so exciting meeting the Guild's members. They're so kind, helpful, fun, funny, friendly, AH the best guild you can ask for. LOSTSOUL2 ROCKS! :D
Last saturday we had this SS Edit competition. Take a SS of the Guild, as in Guild group photo, and edit it. Best would get 1m, followed by 2nd and 3rd. Here's my copy :D


I could only use paint to edit it. I tried using some brushes, and added some effects around. Heh, yeah, it's not up to standard acually. Not too nice luh, but I like the quality, so smooth and clear. XD..
Guess what level am I? Two nice even digit numbers. Good numbers for toto. Good mah? Good mah? -gives one tight slap- OF COURSE GOOD LAH. YOU KNOW IT MEANS I CAN GO ZOMBIE AREA, WEAR CALAF AND CIRCLET AND NAPOLEON, NEW QUESTS, AND DO THAT SABITAMA QUEST?!
BUT, also have side effects lah. I've reached the goal which I wanna reach, also nothing to do le. I do finish all the quests I have, the most is I can level up till 52, only? I hope I have the knack to train hard for level 58, and wear Anakarune? Hmm .. Possible meh? Hahahah.
Here's some picture I took at the zombie area with DEAR Tommy. He agreed to accompany me and take me around the zombie area! Such a sweetie. XD

This one is one of the monsters there. It's a big black wolf :) It's called Lycanthrope I think?? Or is the white one called Lycanthrope? I dunno, I didn't get to take the white wolf's SS though. :/

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This is the dark yeti, where dear Tom helped me to freeze it so I can take a SS. :D

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Brag brag brag! I like those spirit rocks. Such nice stuffs -googoogahgah- I like my crystal rocks too! -nods head-, and I like those luncheonmeatcold eye tails. ^^ they look pretty too. Oh bah, enough of maple pics. Must be boring you non-maple people out. -blows raspberry-.

Oh somehow I wanna eat candy canes. It's so yummy to suck it! Yum. I miss school's meesiam too. Oh their love. I like that soup, and the nice ikan bilis I used to ask them to add on top! I also miss that nice meerobus! It's that hot bowl of nice noodle. Oh man, I love malay food lah!

Haven't buy some people's christmas presents. Oh munchy honeycakes. Can't money grow on trees? (Although they do, seeing that their made from paper). Can't money fall from the skies? Oh munchy honeycakes indeed. Darn it, facing a huge financial crisis. OKAY, shut shut from money. Need to save fast, buy presents and make them happy. Yeah~ -puffs-

Humbug, I like Justin Timberlake now. I also like Rain! I also like Shi Xin Huey, and I also like Stacie Orrico and Jessica Simpson. (My like preferences changes within time, that's why I like different musics.). Justin Timberlake, wah seh, his dance moves like. -drools. Rain. eh, I like two of his songs only LOL. It's Raining, is one of them :P .. Shi Xin Huey, I like 'Chong Taiwan Dao Taibei' or something, and Stacie Orrico, I like 'So Simple', 'More to life', 'I'm not missing you', and I think I forgot one more? Jessica Simpson, haven't heard alot of her songs yet, but I've heard 'I will love you forever', 'A Public Affair' and a nice song, 'Belong to you', or something.
Bah my stupid brain.

Christmas is coming so soon. And I've yet to do my Christmas skin! Argh. I think I'll have to do in paint, if I can't do it soon enough. Oh humbug. -.- .. I think I'll steal some codings all around the place. Hmm.. -ponders- ..

Oh yokohono. I'll try to finish it soon. My mom's back from her 2 days camp and I dunno if I have time to be on the comp again?
Thanks much for the taggies! Huggie pampers :)




Friday, December 08, 2006
I'm gonna move on with life and stop hanging around on the same sadness and cause of it. Many thanks to that dear women who sheltered me from the heavy rain the other day. It made me realize so much things, it made me do much thinking. I shall stop and do where it deems appropriate. In the mean while, it's only best for me to think clearly and positively.

Maybe theres no increase in haters? Maybe my mom might let me come online sometimes? Maybe I can get into Yusof Ishak, with no troubles? Maybe I can get to watch Harry Potter OOP with my new found friends next year, including some Harry Potter freaks like me? Maybe maybe maybe....

Hmm, watched that 9pm show last night. O.o Bad breath is caused when your digestive system isn't right, and your digestive system is usually affected by your moods, so when you're sad, bad breath comes. That's what they taught me last night, but ohoho, this is not related to waking up and getting those bad breath. Don't go telling your mom, "MUMMY! I CANNOT BRUSH TEETH." Mommy goes, "Why?" and you go, "BECAUSE I AM SAD, THAN DIGESTIVE SYSTEM AFFECTED, THAN BAD BREATH COME OUT. SO YOU MUST MAKE ME HAPPY AND BUY FOR ME X-BOX."
puipuipui. Good excuse to not brush teeth, though, don't you think? xD

Yesterday's party/fun-in-the-house at Shermain's was rather fun. Woke up at 8 by my phone, faster went to brush my teeth and anyhow picked stuffs to wear. Remembered I forgot to wrap Dingchao's christmas present, so I tore a brown-like wrapper and quickly wrapped it up. Stuffed my Harry Potter COS and my wallet into my new brown sling bag, and my handphone as well. Just at that moment, my mom woked up, and said, "Got any parties this early host untill night meh?" Judging from that, confirm she abit don't believe. I wrote down Shermain's house tel. and handphone no., and told her to call anytime if she doesn't believe, or if my handphone was switched off. She believed, and asked me to go down and buy newspaper for her -.- I quickly rushed down the stairs (the elevater wasn't working), and ran up the stairs again, and ran down again to catch the 8.50 176 bus to westmall. I waited for Ding Chao until the HillView Regency condo pass passed, and the Glendale Park condo bus came. He called me and I told him to wait inside the 7-11, coz I don't see him at all. I saw him walking towards me from the MRT side .. Goodness me wonder where has he waited at o.O

We boarded the bus and I read my HP book, we reached soon and I lead him to Sher's house. We entered, and I greeted her mom and popo. We went into her room, and I greeted her cousin, Minmin (several times), and we watched The Fog. Okok lah o.O Got a scene where a man and women bathe together. -cough- .. After that we went to eat, and I went to surf the net. We watched alot of ghosts show on YouTube, and LOL, 4 of them were freaking funny. One was to stare at the car and wait (I know that trick, and asked them to watch) :x .. Suddenly a face popped out. LOL Shermain screamed xD .. Then another one was to watch a tape, and while we watched, this man wearing a sheet over his head appeared LOL. We all laughed. After that was this video where it said, "Very scary". We watched, and than suddenly this guy in white sheet appeared LOL. We could see it's colourful socks, and it danced around before hitting a chair and fell down. LOLOL! Another one was to look at this rocking chair, it started rocking and suddenly this face came towards the screen. That one I screamed. :X We had fun.

We played stress to, and rolled around the bed, and had pillow fights. Ate snacks and ate those food at times as well. Dingchao taught me and pris AuditionSEA, and we took turns to play. I think I'm gonna go download Audition. Can listen to free korean/japanese song, and dance along. Funfun xD ..

I'm rather interested in ghosts now o.O Was searching the net for Red house just now. Got several infos ..

The red house is guarded by a gate, and there was a rumour that 7 girls died in there, which was why 7 combs, and such such were burnt during the 7th month as offerings to the house. The lions there were rumoured to be possessed, with evil spirits. If you step on it, or perhaps scold it, something bad would happen to you. (I don't know the case if you step on it's head, because afew people had and nothing happened). But for safety reasons, or better be safe than sorry, don't touch it or anything luh. This boy scolded the lion and was seen trying to jump off a building. He said he felt a force pushing him to do it, and his uncle saved him. o_o.. Ohboy, scared now. X.X .. The house looked scary. brr.

Okay lah, that's all for my posts. Will post soon again, I guess. (:



Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Guy who has made me most sad: Gabriel.
Guy who has made me cry most: Gabriel.
Guy who has influenced me the most: Gabriel.
Guy who has taught me the most: Gabriel.
Guy who has comforted me the most: Gabriel.
Guy who has talked on the phone with me the most: Gabriel.
Guy who has turned people's view against me the most: Gabriel.
Guy who has made me realize alot of things: Gabriel.
Guy who has made me cry in school the most: Gabriel.
Guy who is now no longer friends with me: Gabriel.

Good bye Gabriel, it's good being friends with you.

BANG!


Mom's more strict than ever, "allergic to computer", she says. >.> Ah well. She've gone and shaved caley till he's naked, and caley is now staring at me with his dear puppy eyes. Sigh~ Life's getting more and more unbearable. Because of myself, and because of someone else, and because of alot of tons others, I've gained alot of haters (I think).

Sher's party/fun-at-her-house is just tomorrow, guess that would be the only thing I'll be looking forward to? Hm. Got nothing special in life to blog about now. Will go dig myself back into my private blog. RECORD: It has at least 8 entries now. ^^



Saturday, December 02, 2006
HELLO. Before I continue,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUNTING!

Went to Chunting's party yesterday, and realized that it was a pity that that whole year, I missed out spending with some really great and fun people, like odell, ridzuan, hong sing, elizebeth, theodora and chunting. Missed out on getting to know people like ryan, victor, cleophas and bertrand too, sigh pity pity pity. Woke up at 9am unwillingly coz I slept at 4 yesterday 0.0.. than I went to change into a short pants and shirt, and went to take 945 to bukit gombak, before taking MRT to chua chu kang. Reached there and called chunting, and she asked me to go up to the arcade. @#@@&&^ damnit, couldn't remember which floor and where, so I asked her. She directed me up there, and we played Daytonia and the basketball game again LOL.. but this time basketball team with wenyang and theodora O.o we got 40+ as the highest. LOL guess too much strength xP After that we went to 'More Than Words' which reminds me of the song more than words by uh.. forgot :x.. we went to buy 2 soft toys for dear chunting. There's this figurine there wearing a tube dress, and wearing a wig. I wore the wig and pulled down the tube and saw the lady's neh. LOL hongsing was like EWWW and theodora odell all these gave a sort of 'omg ew' laugh. XDXD.. after that we went to take bus 307 and I chatted with theo, and reached there. we walked to chun's house, passing by wenyang's house, and chun's auntie house. Halfway we saw this mirror which when you press, actually can move back O.o theo said it looks like matrix one xD ..

Reached her house, and we watched tv and ate sweets first, after that helped chunting make sandwiches and water bomb. It was just us, me cleo odell theo chun wenyang and melissa. Theo filled up the packets, while I occasionally helped, and we helped to tie the bomb. Filled 2 buckets, and after that more people came. We all watched mr bean together and laughed. bahaha. it was fun. ridzuan came and the laughter also became louder LOL.. he was fun, XD and i kept throwing sweets at ryan hongsing bertrand wenyang ridzuan. I would throw at the girls, but i scared they'll start screaming saying hit where xxxx, so i prefer hitting the boys xD .. after that we ate, and watched tv, and it was time for water bomb! odell threw his first one, AND LOL IT HIT CHUNTING'S AUNTIE. XD.. the auntie didnt mind, and we laughed like dunno what XD.. after that the war started, bahahahahah throw here and there, damn fun sia! first time i had a water bomb fight. threw here and there, and i wasnt wet untill ryan pour water on me #%@^@.. I kicked him and threw bombs at him, and bertrand also did the same thing on me. After that chunting could use the water hose, and it was soon snatched by bertrand and he aimed the hose at chunting and everyone else, than me ^@^@&@.. LOL than we had to stop at times to pick up the packets on the floor, after that warr again! i finally got the hose and sprayed and bertrand and ryan, and bertrand snatched the hose from me ^$#&*# .. I pinched his stomach and his hands to make him gimme back XD but in the end i couldnt do it, so he got the hose :/

after that no more bomb le, so we all dried up outside, and er, what word is that again, scrunch / squeeze our shirt to make water come out?? ryan took out his shirt and omg~~ 8 pack! damn clear lah, wah lao so hot. LOL.. than we went back into the house and changed, and I didnt have to go to tuition that day XD tricia and my dad gave me a day off, whoohoo. I wore the skirt which I actually wanted to wear to tuition, and went back down to help with the barbeque. Me and ridzuan fanned the barbeque pit and chatted, while odell came and join us. than after that i went back in and watched tv and chatted with cleophas and bertrand, after that chunting came back down. She played taichi with the rest O.o .. boo for me for not knowing LOL. than i played stress with hongsing. went back to watch tv again :x and chunting announced that it was time for truth or dare~! we played, and LOL it was fun .. ridzuan did the best on fucking the christmas tree XD, than mallory bertrand ryan and theo also kenna, debbie also, but the ultimate one (for me i think) was eli and odell, and chun and wenyang :P .. after that went up and chatted with eli, than went back down to watch the 9pm show. o.o while the rest played taichi and chatted. after that 10 came soon, and alot of people go home le.

Odell ridzuan victor hongsing theo taking my sis's car to go home. Chunting theo me wenyang ridzuan odell hongsing victor chatted about ghosts O.o and pontianaks, after that about other stuffs, and than my sis finally came. my sis gave chunting 20bucks LOL. than we drove off. everyone chatted, with my sis also, than she dropped each of them directly below their building and each of them thanked her. she dont let them drop off further than their house, good girl ~ .. they were happy to be dropped off so near, coz we were talking very much about ghosts LOL so they scared. than finally hongsing dropped off, than left ridzuan le. chatted with ridzuan about stuffs and ghosts, than dropped him off, than chatted with tricia lor O.o.. than went up and helped her with changing skins while conferencing with odell chun theo and wenyang.

Woke up at 1, kenna disturbed by odell. he told me to call him. called him and was conferencing with them again, ohohoho. conference untill 2 or 3 bah, than had to off and eat lunch. Hum, sis finally found sher's sims 2 CD, good good. Told my dad to bring home the reformatting disc tonight or tomorrow, coz really wanna reformat le, and i really wanna change skin to a white one! I'm sick of black :/ .. hummm. gonna go post my external feelings in my private blog alrd, so no one wont guess and wont ask who -.-

CHUN!!! thanks for the really great party, really enjoyed myself alot, and made alot of new friends :D wish you a great happy birthday.

Baboom. I still wanna do so many things!!!!
  1. Reformat computer and get back my adobe, and download new stuffs~!
  2. Keep in touch with my really close friends T.T
  3. Get kor happy with his chalet.
  4. Make a nice christmas skin!!!
  5. Get alot of songs which I want T_T
  6. New handphonee :/
  7. Buy sec 1 books and those stationary blahs fast! LOL I'm excited to read the text books.
  8. Go out with my girlfriends, GIRL, note, and shop around XD maybe sher chun pris theo and chloe if possibleh? :/
  9. Go out with my friends, watch movie! happy feet or step up or open season, gah wanna watch all 3!!! material girls also. blah :/ .. maybe with my new found buddies LOL and old buddies? boo ..
  10. find a sport partner... im rotting alot at home...

BOOOOOOOO, okay thats all for now. :D
P.S: 0.0 friendster URL shortened to http://www.friendster.com/enex LOL..